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everyone has secrets, either good or bad... so do i, and pretty much of bad ones i presume or rather YES. i felt remorseful and ashame of myself after telling you the things that i have done before.

referring to this entry secrets, do you? almost 2years ago...

i said something like this:
i believe there are secret that we could not tell until the time is right and that again... how can we be sure that the time is right?

i have to agree with that, its better to come clean but how fast? after all it could be justifiable.

i guess the main reason of a secret to think about is the purpose of that secret....

my purpose is to come clean, and not to hide anything good/bad from you. cause i want to have a health ongoing stable relationship without secrets so there wont be doubts about the future...
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i may have hurt you, and i'm really very sorry about it. i do hope you understand the plight i'm in of why i told you that last night.

i'm not showing others of who i'm nor how good i could treat my dear one. everything i do is truly at my own will, where i will bear any consequences. doesn't seem that the past 2 fail relationship would bring me down, but it made me a changed man.

my purpose of this entry it to let you know that i perfectly know what i want for now and in future. seriously, i don't fucking care how others judge me nor seen me as a weakling loser that long distance r/s wont work out. i'm not showing them the results, but i'm working hard for my future!

i may be hundred over miles away from you, and very well know that virtual communication and telecommunication is not suffice for our r/s to flourish BUT....

the beauty of love lasts a life time. when you're engage in a long distance r/s, it doesn't matter if you're not in the same place or country because LOVE HAS NO DISTANCE.

i'm taking this chance to reassure what and where i'm heading....and thats you. sorry once again for what had happened even thou its the past but take some time to ponder over what i said. i just wants to do my utmost to you in everything with all i can. i know that I LOVE YOU.


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