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my confession - Tuesday, November 29, 2005

i just finished my accounting assessment, dunno whether the figures are correct anot!. still got lotsa of work to rush within these weeks, assessments & portfolios. i’m working hard...am i? sigh! been seeing lotsa of my frens off to the airport...yesterday, kristin, kitty, charlene, alvin left for malaysia, yee wan fly to melbourne to meet up with her parents. i wonder when will i ever see them again? when one and the other is not in the same state or country...you people really made a huge impact in my life especially you!

today is the sixth day of missing you. people surrounding can see the change in me, perhaps becoming a stoner, a quiet person, not my usual self. my emotional level is low, i’m moody, i dun wish to speak much....i just wanna stop where i’m or even better, turn back time. i feel like voicing out but i dun think its good enough.....

I can't stand it anymore
I can't hold it any longer
I really have to admit that
I couldn't be happy without you
I couldn't smile without you
Because you’re so special to me
Because you’re so important to me
Because you had become a part of me
I can't live without you
Because you’re my sunshine
Because I need you, i miss you!

moo'd @ 11:12 AM



day 2 - Friday, November 25, 2005

its the second day of missing someone, the feeling is so bad that i can barely describe it...sigh! seriously, i dunno wat to say...prehaps what had said had been said...my life is not as colourful already...argh! everything is beautiful and i will perfect it...i'm gonna hunt you down! bang bang!

moo'd @ 4:59 PM



ever felt this... - Saturday, November 19, 2005

ever felt something heavy pressing against your heart? like a big gigantic rock! you can hardly breathe...it's not only painful but it's suffering too...what comes next might be tears...you just feel very tired and weak as if you had work whole day but actually you din...you're just moody, emotionless, quiet, lonely and sad. you really feel like crying, would melt your heart so that the pain won't be so heavy!

depressed as you are, you feel like you just want to do something else to forget about it but you really dunno where to start...you want to be numb and fearless, however no matter how busy you got yourself into...you would still feel depressed. you would still remember it and still feel the pain...you really feel like fading away from this earth, as if you weren't even born in this world. you just want to be alone and exclude yourself from everyone. you just want to feel dead. loneliness is you!

the songs you're listening to now are mostly lonely & sad songs. these are the songs that you would like to drown yourself into the melody and lyrics...the emotions you're feeling now is undescribable...as you fade away, you notice yourself falling deep and soon...you would lose touch of the world, everything and you!

moo'd @ 2:00 PM



wah! si bei sianz..... -

just work up and found out that i was alone at home...everyone went out! i'm left with no lunch...sigh! haven't felt this kind of lonely feelin for quite sometime, its like the feelin when i first got here...all family members went out....no frens ( actually all of them r mugging for their papers now, dun wanna disturb them...) no one left except me....hai~ one word: SIAN

moo'd @ 1:04 PM



waiting... - Tuesday, November 15, 2005

are you waiting for someone to send you a message in MSN, an SMS or even a phone call? you would feel excited to find out who msg or call...and if it's ain't that special someone, you would be very dissapointed...then how? wait again.... the point is, who? why just waiting for all these, you frustrate too much and couldn't seem to concentrate on whatever you're doing...and the person you're waiting for? does he/she knows? or simply can't be bother with you...ignoring you?

the reason for all this waiting? all this passion? all this patience? yes, it's all about love...nothing else to be said. you just got feelings for someone and he/she is special who catchs your attention and your heart beats incredibly fast...you sweat more...you become very, very nervous...it's worse than stage fright, exam or an interview...

prehaps just one second of comfort, one second of happiness, one second of excitement from the person...although it's not long, it WILL simply brighten up your entire day! what more can you expect? just a lil of this and that is enough...

i'm waiting...are you?

moo'd @ 9:51 AM



huh? - Sunday, November 13, 2005

morning everyone...just got back from abalone catching...finally its well worth e $$$, i got 7 abalone today but was injured during the catch. got hit by the waves and i lost my balance and hit my knee cap against the uneven corals...its hurts, gonna hav burise soon and there's a few cuts here and there...but overall its really an experience...keke...

on wednesday, i left sim's place and on the way home...i was knock by a pink VW beetle from the back...luckily, my car din really had much damaged but still i got off $250 from the lady driver to repair my car...hehe...nothing much was done during tis week as everyone is preparing for their finale! haha...exams! i was rather bored and got nothing to do...keke....

moo'd @ 11:02 AM



summarise the days... - Tuesday, November 08, 2005

i have been out enjoying myself during the self-proclaimed long weekend(fri - mon). i'm totally drained, penniless, overplayed and in pain cuz my thighs been soring since saturday.

Friday
its abalone season, i got my abalone licence from the post office. the season is strictly limited to only 9 hours - made up of 6 Sunday mornings each with a 1 1/2-hour session, starting at 7am till 8.30am at Burns Beach.

was in the city with the rest of the gang, shopping for stuff and gather information for the upcoming trip on Sunday...its been a tiring day for me and more. chilling out at our usual place, Makan Makan, in Victoria Park was there for 2hrs+ before i left for home to swap vehicle. i need to fetch my bro & his family from Perth International Airport. got there in time and i waited for an hour plus before they came out from the arrival gates and its 2am+, the OZ custom really damn strict and slow, arghh!!! i gotta wake up early the following morning at 8am+.
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Saturday
PaintBall - its a game in which players on one team seek to eliminate those in the opposing team by shooting them with CO2 air guns in water-soluble coloured bullets.

lots of us attend the game - me, my bro, sim, yee wan, tc, meryvn, khar hoe, chris, david, jason and patrick. the game started shortly after some instruction and demonstration on safety and how to handle the air gun. overall i took out quite a number of ppl but i'm shot a couple of times; twice at e front of my body, once at the back and arm...left myself with painful marks! the whole game ended at 4pm. super tired...been running e whole day, trying to avoid being shot.

got home at 5pm, had a hot bathe & a short nap before i got myself ready for dinner with sharyn. we managed to catch some fireworks display....and enjoy the night view of the city...we had gelare ice-cream before i send her back...

clubbing nite with sim, meryvn, jason, yumi, david & yen...my legs are numb, i'm so tired, i cant move...yes, i'm complaining! and why did i go? to accompany my brothers! thats why but we ended the nite early...
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Sunday
only had 3hrs+ of sleep, got myself ready for the abalone catching...we reached Burns Beach at 6am+, changed into our outfit & got our gears ready...i was in the freezing cold water for 45mins before i gave up, shivering non-stop like vibrator sia! keke...

after the abalone catching, we headed back for a quick brunch and was rushing from point to point to our final desnation: Rottnest Island, managed to catch the 12pm ferry...its a 45mins ride! check into our chalet, and went cycling the island...looking for nice beaches to chill, slack, sleep, swim....etc! lotsa wild Quokka ard when we're grilling our chicken wings for dinner...was caught up with some conversation with sim & david and shortly after...me & sharyn left to enjoy the night sky! we managed to catch 2 shooting star together...i din wish for anything cuz i had already make my wish two weeks ago when i saw one...one is enough for me...
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Monday
had a quick brunch and we were fishing at the jetty...had quite a number of run, its sting rays...they're so strong, even 40pounds of fish line snaps...i'm just enjoying the sea breeze & a few showers...while the others were happily fishing ...din really hav the mood to fish & i din wanna dirty myself as well...keke! we took the last ferry which is 4.30pm back.

prehaps i gotta stop here now...been talking too much, sorry for my command of english if you ppl who reads my blog dun understand what i'm talking abt...its just a summary...
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moo'd @ 9:44 AM



will time just stop for that moment - Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Happy Halloween to all last night, kids dressing in costumes came over to my place to collect candies...they will take e trouble, dreessing up and going to every household, prehaps it's becuz of the candy...that's why! some of them dress like; witch, horror monster, mummy...etc! it's really a kind of experience as back home we dun perform such things, people will think that they're crazy. it is celebrated in much of the western world, not the orient.

today is the first day of november, time really flies...just a blink of an eye, lotsa things happened either good, bad, sad or happy moments. its just memories about the past which you put it behind and kept those happy sweet ones in your heart...look at the present & the furture which lies ahead, dun be bother by the past after all. treasure what you have now, you never know what will happen next...i'm treasuring every single second cuz time is catching up...if possible i will prolong the time or stop the second & minute hand ticking, sorry but i cant. accept my own fate! i wanna escape to a remote island and just rot...UUUrrrrgghhhH!!!

moo'd @ 8:45 AM











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