i wouldn't be blogging for the next couple of weeks (havent blog for quite sometime since the last entry too, been busy.)

cause i would be preparing for my finals in 2 weeks time...

i'm already stressing out...

time passes so quickly as i haven't had enough time to revise.

from now till the last paper, i will be mugging hard.

hopefully, i could score D...Ds...and more Dsss or even HD!!!

Labels: fact, stress, uni

all assignments & projects are locked in...

as of now, officially i'm sorta free from all these stress.

but the greatest stress is yet to come in weeksss time, FINAL EXAMINATION!

seriously, i'm so afraid of examination! either i got too much time (dunno wat to write?!) or not enough time (write rubbish!) for it... haha! ask me to study nor revise!? i could seriously tell you that i don't know HOW?!

just read and write??? most of the time, i would shift my attention elsewhere, just like a child with short time spend and not be able to focus on certain things...except toys! makes me sound like a child... maybe worse! =X

and to write and memorise, its a KILLER for me... i cant memorise words, terms, or definition for nuts! not good~ not good~~~

guys, is there a way for me to stay on focus and being able to memorise all these terminology? thats really bad...

oh ya, i don't whether to change my major anot? to double major instead on just one. still taking tourism management but with what? marketing? public relation? or real estate? as of now, my eyes are set on marketing! but i think i would be struggling on that...HOW???

seek me an answer!!!





hopefully, after all these stressful issues... my mom could buy me a trip to the rising sun for a holiday! hopefully!!! or perhaps i strike lottery... we'll see and i will take it from here! love you all....



**hint hint** i'm coming back real SOON.

Labels: home, stress, uni

ever since the last entry, i have been really struggling with my health and especially studies!

haven't had a good night sleep since, which i always wake up in the middle of the night or early morning with a sore or sting on my back and shoulder...

meeting deadlines of my projects and assignments... its like a hit in the head~ got ran over by a heavy truck, which resulted to the shrinkage of my brain. couldn't think properly and able to focus on a thing for long...

someone was telling me that, you're old already la...

it makes me ponder...physically or mentally? or both???
think about it, i'm not a young lad anymore but a man growing older with each passing day, awaiting something to come (nothing in particular)... perhaps to strike this thursday lottery of 30 million!!! haha...

last saturday was the ever first time this semester that i'm NOT out... nah~~~

Labels: life, stress, uni

this week is the shittiest week ever, and it had over shadow all the good things that had happened this week...

my sore neck & shoulder turn worst... i couldn't really slp last night, getting up from the bed, its another problem...

i have been awake since 7+ till now, and i cant get back to slp due to the injury~

issit becuz of the drinks i had last night which resulted in all these?

it wasn't a very pleasant night as well...

totally bad bad bad for me...

i think i shld impose some curfew on MYSELF.

there's so many thing that i have to think it through...

i need to repent for my wrongdoings...

Labels: emo, fact, loser, numb

what shall i pour in here today?

life's been really busy with uni, projects, assignments...

not to forget work & party~ but i just find that 'something' is missing.

its just so weird, when you're feeling this way while you're enjoying.

it doesn't make any sense... which i find it rather funny~

my neck and shoulder is recovering thou, but it still hurts...

gonna do my econs tut ques for tml now~

Labels: life, question, uni

i woke up with a stiff neck and shoulder and its been hurting since...

i didn't turn up for work cause i cant even checked my blind spot~

luckily, there wasn't any lectures or tuts today,

i wanted to start on my assignment, i just cant cause its hurting badly.

i have been like "slacking" with pain the whole day.

alright i'm whining! so what?

life still move on...

every second ticking away...

i'm coming HOME.

Labels: feeling

am mugging for my legal framework(law) test...

so many details, facts and cases that need to remember!

i cant memorise all these things for nuts...

other things i'm like so good at it.

study wise, difficult la....

thats why i have to 'gambate' (work hard in japanese).

Labels: stress, uni

sai tao = shit head

yap, i brought my own shit upon my head...

feeling so shitty like never before...

i reckon i need to be shot in the head...

i screwed myself up big time big time...

i dug my own grave and its deep...

i guess i couldn't turn back the mistakes that i have done...

argh!!! i'm so angry at myself... pissed off~

have i lost the battle?

in my mind......(i'm afraid YES)

Labels: loser, lost, piss off

was surfing through friendster's horoscope......

The Bottom Line
Don't worry -- this serious mindset is temporary. You still know how to have fun.

In Detail
You're getting more in sync with the world around you, and you'll probably start to feel the need to be social -- but not the 'let's get together and party' kind of social. You want to be socially useful -- to be with people you don't see often, and to deal with controversial or troubling issues.

Listening to your serious side doesn't mean you're losing your ability to have fun, though. This is a temporary phase, and it will teach you a lot about how to relate to others.
------

its just so true... am trouble with certain things in life currently...

dear blog, why am i feeling this way?

Labels: bored, emo, piss off