is death the only solution? - Friday, October 28, 2005
death is the end for misery, pain, heartbreak, fear of death it's self. many wonder why we are put through the sadness of losing someone. others will tell you there's a better someone waiting for you. now i can't tell you much but i'm telling you that do not fear death, or the pain of dieing becuz all of this will lead you to a place. a place where you can be free with no worries or troubles...
life after death will lead to eternal life, you will know the truth eventually, the love and beauty lies in the kingdom of heaven....
life after death will lead to eternal life, you will know the truth eventually, the love and beauty lies in the kingdom of heaven....
moo'd @ 1:56 PM
Go, Going....GONE! - Tuesday, October 25, 2005
willpower and self discipline are two of the most important keys to success(i think...). actually will is not a power, but it is all the power there is. how did God create the world? by will? i should asked my fellow church-goers or pastor for answer. self discipline requires understanding of oneself and one can cope with difficulties, frustrations, and disappointments. self-discipline means that you hav to be very determined to achieve the goals you have set.
for my case, i had set myself a goal, i got to hav a strong desire to achieve it, and failure is just a part of process and i'm gonna take things one step at a time. but i got not much time left...how could i achieve it? sigh...
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do you know what's the most powerful force in life?
it's
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L O V E - Pronunciation Key (luv) n.
- a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
- a feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of romance.
love will motivate people in ways that nothing else can. love will endure in ways that nothing else can. love will make sacrifices that nothing else will consider. love always hopes. loving yrself is the finest reflection of loving others. let's LOVE!!!
the love for each other, the support they give, the understanding they share, the bond that exists between heart, mind, and soul are so unusual that a person has such few relationships in life. so make yr life worth living and love but first of all where is the love?
moo'd @ 10:07 AM
crap - Saturday, October 22, 2005
its been a week since my last entry, was pretty busy(juz an excuse) & mostly i'm lazy lar...things do happen this past week, to me it seems like everything is moving so quickly...time really flies...sigh!
life is about making mistakes and learning from it...everyone do make mistakes in life, it all depends whether the person repents during the process of healing. you'll try not to repeat the same mistake ever again since you know what's the consequence.
haha...i'm talking abt those logical stuff again...i gotta stop...pardon me, i dunno when will be my next entry again, will try to blog asap...life's just so unfair...don't you think so?
life is about making mistakes and learning from it...everyone do make mistakes in life, it all depends whether the person repents during the process of healing. you'll try not to repeat the same mistake ever again since you know what's the consequence.
haha...i'm talking abt those logical stuff again...i gotta stop...pardon me, i dunno when will be my next entry again, will try to blog asap...life's just so unfair...don't you think so?
moo'd @ 12:33 PM
secrets, do you? - Friday, October 14, 2005
there won't be sunshine without your existence...i always wonder...how many secrets do a person generally have? what makes it so secretive? what makes these secrets then? a psychologist would say that the most important relationship is the relationship between yourself(issit true?). thus issit because we share these 'secrets' with ourselves, thus we could tell one or two other people about it? what makes these secrets such that we have to try to keep it in a low key or we will create havoc after telling? sometimes i wonder why i called it secrets, especially at the moment where i told someone. issit something that we are just to ashame of to show or to tell the public or are we just trying to make things more 'interesting' or 'dramatic'? secrets...such unique information that we try to hide from everyone...for what reasons?..i believe there are secret that we could not tell until the time is right and that again...how can we be sure that the time is right? what if the time never comes? i guess the main reason of a secret to think about is the purpose of that secret....
what more can i expect...
SERCRETS = function in such unique way where it could influence one's perspective of life or could even have an effect on one's life...
well after all the discussion abt the "secret" thingy. i'm feelin down all of a sudden(as always...) or rather pissed! i'm not really to discuss my grief but i assure you, now is a time for grieving. i'd rather not go into detail becuz it makes me more upset to think about it...but it's all in the mind, i cant brush it off no matter how hard i try. i'm stuck...
moo'd @ 1:09 PM
incomplete - Tuesday, October 11, 2005
issit normal to feel this way most of e time? i really wonder. it may seems strange or rather weird for others, but i'm not contented by what i had now. i hav always known that i wanted something more. i was never happy. never contented by things involving me. i found my happiness in helping others & laughter from friends but that has greatly slowed over the last few weeks, everyone's dealing with their own problems.
i hav been looking for something else. i thought about a search for God. that didnt get me far enough, religion isn't for me. keeping everything in, smiling for show(sometimes). creating an alternate universe all to myself, where i can smile through the worst. this is my new happy place(am i really happy?) and it's fake reality. i even find a smile in knowing i thought too much before i sleep at night becuz i feel the same pain as she did(i do hope so...) alot of what i write is about her. lets be clear, she's just someone i really respect, look up to and had chemistry on. you will probably never know her name. names complicate things. names make things less personal.
i do want her to watch me as i grow(i know i'm old enough but its the process), encourage me as i struggle(i'm now., its going deeper and deeper) and it reminds me of how good it feels to see her and times spend together. she could hav done that but it's not as simple as it seems. things are rather complicated, reasons to back it up. well, i'm rather exhausted. cant push any further, it may be untimely during this few weeks. next thing it's gone. how could this happen to me? i wonder. i may be talking too much, crapping lots but this's how i'm. bye...
i hav been looking for something else. i thought about a search for God. that didnt get me far enough, religion isn't for me. keeping everything in, smiling for show(sometimes). creating an alternate universe all to myself, where i can smile through the worst. this is my new happy place(am i really happy?) and it's fake reality. i even find a smile in knowing i thought too much before i sleep at night becuz i feel the same pain as she did(i do hope so...) alot of what i write is about her. lets be clear, she's just someone i really respect, look up to and had chemistry on. you will probably never know her name. names complicate things. names make things less personal.
i do want her to watch me as i grow(i know i'm old enough but its the process), encourage me as i struggle(i'm now., its going deeper and deeper) and it reminds me of how good it feels to see her and times spend together. she could hav done that but it's not as simple as it seems. things are rather complicated, reasons to back it up. well, i'm rather exhausted. cant push any further, it may be untimely during this few weeks. next thing it's gone. how could this happen to me? i wonder. i may be talking too much, crapping lots but this's how i'm. bye...
moo'd @ 5:42 PM
absofuckinglutely high!!! - Saturday, October 08, 2005
finally, i'm a surf dude! hahaha...just got back from surfing with sim, yee wan & sharyn(signed up for the surfing course)...my whole body is aching, my eyes is shutting, my toes hurts from falling off the board hitting the ground so many times and my face is burning, i wonder why cuz i did applied sunscreen...perhaps been out at the sun for too long? nvm lar, i will be fine! i know i'm complaining...haha! its just somethings i wanna voice out, but there's some i got to keep it just to myself...sigh!
we met up with the other 4 beginner surfers & coach at the meeting area at 6.15am. gosh, i woke up at 5am this morning! and yesterday was my last working day as i'm starting class tis coming week. i woke up 4am+ in the morning, finished work & got home like 6.30pm++! non-stop working for the past 2 wks...back to where i were, we set off in a small van to the far far away beach at Lancelin(out of perth, 120km+ away...) which took us an hr plus to get there...the scenery was like WOW! cant get that kind of view and quality of the beach in perth. shortly after we reached, we changed into our bodysuit aka wetsuit and took our surfing boards...there we go for the big challenge!!! the coach taught us the basic steps to surf and we were practicing on the shore, mins later...we're in the sea getting smack by the waves, drinking sea water lots of times, and eventually i'm able to bring myself up standing on the surf board. its really a great experience! balancing yrself on the surf board with the waves rushing from behind...the adrenaline rush is shiok! all of us were totally exhausted & slpt thru out the whole journey back...
the whole trip is worth every single cent but its kinda costly lar, haha...contracting, yes i'm! seriously its the fun, like i said before...you got to experience things, everything!!! whats on the list next? shld be...abalone catching! the season is coming...yummie!
fantastic 4
look at the wetsuit...so tight!
nice view!
the waves is coming....
the next moment...i'm up surfing!
we met up with the other 4 beginner surfers & coach at the meeting area at 6.15am. gosh, i woke up at 5am this morning! and yesterday was my last working day as i'm starting class tis coming week. i woke up 4am+ in the morning, finished work & got home like 6.30pm++! non-stop working for the past 2 wks...back to where i were, we set off in a small van to the far far away beach at Lancelin(out of perth, 120km+ away...) which took us an hr plus to get there...the scenery was like WOW! cant get that kind of view and quality of the beach in perth. shortly after we reached, we changed into our bodysuit aka wetsuit and took our surfing boards...there we go for the big challenge!!! the coach taught us the basic steps to surf and we were practicing on the shore, mins later...we're in the sea getting smack by the waves, drinking sea water lots of times, and eventually i'm able to bring myself up standing on the surf board. its really a great experience! balancing yrself on the surf board with the waves rushing from behind...the adrenaline rush is shiok! all of us were totally exhausted & slpt thru out the whole journey back...
the whole trip is worth every single cent but its kinda costly lar, haha...contracting, yes i'm! seriously its the fun, like i said before...you got to experience things, everything!!! whats on the list next? shld be...abalone catching! the season is coming...yummie!
fantastic 4
look at the wetsuit...so tight!
nice view!
the waves is coming....
the next moment...i'm up surfing!
moo'd @ 5:34 PM
T H R 3 3 - Thursday, October 06, 2005
Got this off kristin's blog...was rather bored so decided to do...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Steve/Steven
2. KK
3. Ah Gu
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. StevenKK
2. SuN ShiN3 StEv3n
3. PiGSy StEv3n
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. almost everything lar...
2. -
3. -
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my bulid
2. height
3. nose
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. seeing you go...
2. loneliness
3. lost of handphone/ wallet/ keys!!!
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. MSN/Mails
2. Phone/SMS
3. Smoke (cutting down...)
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. just Boxers!
2. -
3. -
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Black Eyed Peas
2. Kylie Minogue
3. Craig David
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Retro - Square Room
2. New Order/Frente - Bizarre Love Triangle
3. Red Hot CHilli Pepper - Otherside
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. feel good whenever with her
2. trust, commitment & communication
3. fun & laughter
2 TRUTHS 1 LIE:
1. i'm so in love
2. i'm still single
3. i'm fucking high
(its all abt the TRUTH and NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. what you think?)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair
2. silky legs
3. good skin complexion
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. chill with frens
2. slack & sleep
3. speeding
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. see her
2. talk to her
3. have dinner with her
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. architect
2. i'm a slacker now
3. something that is relate to my studies...
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Manchester(England)
2. Paris(France)
3. Toyko(Japan)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. try everything! like buggy jumping, snow skiing, base jumping...etc
2. to have kids & family of my own
3. be famous & successful
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i got short hair
2. i dun wear lingerie
3. i got something that gals dun.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. whining & complaining
2. my sitting position cuz i cross my legs...
3. my inner side
THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Fiona Xie
2. Christy Chung
3. -
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. whoever read this first...
2. you're the second
3. and third...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Steve/Steven
2. KK
3. Ah Gu
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. StevenKK
2. SuN ShiN3 StEv3n
3. PiGSy StEv3n
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. almost everything lar...
2. -
3. -
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my bulid
2. height
3. nose
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. seeing you go...
2. loneliness
3. lost of handphone/ wallet/ keys!!!
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. MSN/Mails
2. Phone/SMS
3. Smoke (cutting down...)
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. just Boxers!
2. -
3. -
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Black Eyed Peas
2. Kylie Minogue
3. Craig David
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Retro - Square Room
2. New Order/Frente - Bizarre Love Triangle
3. Red Hot CHilli Pepper - Otherside
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. feel good whenever with her
2. trust, commitment & communication
3. fun & laughter
2 TRUTHS 1 LIE:
1. i'm so in love
2. i'm still single
3. i'm fucking high
(its all abt the TRUTH and NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. what you think?)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair
2. silky legs
3. good skin complexion
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. chill with frens
2. slack & sleep
3. speeding
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. see her
2. talk to her
3. have dinner with her
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. architect
2. i'm a slacker now
3. something that is relate to my studies...
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Manchester(England)
2. Paris(France)
3. Toyko(Japan)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. try everything! like buggy jumping, snow skiing, base jumping...etc
2. to have kids & family of my own
3. be famous & successful
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i got short hair
2. i dun wear lingerie
3. i got something that gals dun.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. whining & complaining
2. my sitting position cuz i cross my legs...
3. my inner side
THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Fiona Xie
2. Christy Chung
3. -
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. whoever read this first...
2. you're the second
3. and third...
moo'd @ 5:50 PM
i want food.... - Wednesday, October 05, 2005
i just finished my dinner, had 3 pieces of pizza, 2 plates of rice, 1 piece of raddish cake. i always ate lotsa for dinner, but for breakfast(which i hardly ate...) and lunch its quite ok loh...i wonder am i really a eating monster? i'm 57kg now, gain like 7kg since i came over to australia. been eating lotsa...perhaps its the weather that made me ate so much but i'm happy that i'm gaining weight...my target is 65kg...then i can do weights, hehe...i want back my packs body! dream dream dream...dare to dream, its good to dream and one day it will come true! yes...it will....in yr dreams!
moo'd @ 7:20 PM
hit & die - Monday, October 03, 2005
are you those who uses car as transport to work, school or travel...? surely you hav seen lotsa of animals been crashed or hitted by vehicles...i hav seen quite alot...well today, i was on e road...i saw this dead dog at the side of the road...it really broke my heart cuz i'm a dog lover! sigh...i hav seen dead birds, flatten crows, cats, dogs, squirrels, rabbits, kangaroos...etc!
the whole point is life is just so vulnerable, i hope everyone just live life to the fullest and put all yr worries back of yr head. why bother so much? dun be so stress...yes i'm stress too! just live with it...
in deep thoughts...*fucking high!!!*
the whole point is life is just so vulnerable, i hope everyone just live life to the fullest and put all yr worries back of yr head. why bother so much? dun be so stress...yes i'm stress too! just live with it...
in deep thoughts...*fucking high!!!*
moo'd @ 5:49 PM
is that you? - Sunday, October 02, 2005
everyone has their own problems like family, relationship, money issue, work, studies...etc
lets talk abt relationship...whats the 3 most important key for a strong & healthy r/s?
for me: trust, commitment & communication is a must. if not its hard to maintain it.
trust: to trust someone it take times & courage to really do it...and its a key to many successful r/s. once trust is broken, it takes even a longer time for you to heal & to bring yrself up to face the reality...
commitment: if you dun commit into a r/s, its like the person gives & u kept taking and not giving back in return. its a very selfish act...for those who cant commit for some reason, try to think of another way to solve the problem and make life easier for both. nothing can beat two person that are really in love, liking towards each other & chemistry!!!
communication: its another important key as well, its not just normal communication but you have to understand their needs, ones & problems...do you have quiet times with yr love ones? asking deeper question, trying to know more...take some time out and try, you will tend to listen amazing thing from he/she. always let he/she do the talking first and LISTEN...listening is very important...ask the right ques rather then lame & out of the point ques.
after crapping for so long, i hope those who read will try to understand what i had said...
today i'm suppose to go to church but i din cuz sharyn overslpt even i gave her 2 morning calls...sigh! stop slping so much la...reach her flat and we headed down to northbridge for dim sum but its like so jammed packed. we're so sick of waiting then we just turn to the vietnamese resturtant next door...ate lotsa again, still have to eat part of her share cuz she always cant finish her food...haha! brunch was good it lasted me the whole afternoon and we had gelare ice cream for tea time. my fav strawberry ice cream!!! yummy...window shopping ard the city...nothing much to buy also...but in fact is that no $$$ la...hahaha!
rice paper wrapped with pork & prawn
egg noodles with braised duck - mine
pork & prawn rice noodles - sharyn's
going now, i got to do my part...helping out with the gals with some cooking...claypot rice wor! wonder what will it turn out to be? hehehe! =P
lets talk abt relationship...whats the 3 most important key for a strong & healthy r/s?
for me: trust, commitment & communication is a must. if not its hard to maintain it.
trust: to trust someone it take times & courage to really do it...and its a key to many successful r/s. once trust is broken, it takes even a longer time for you to heal & to bring yrself up to face the reality...
commitment: if you dun commit into a r/s, its like the person gives & u kept taking and not giving back in return. its a very selfish act...for those who cant commit for some reason, try to think of another way to solve the problem and make life easier for both. nothing can beat two person that are really in love, liking towards each other & chemistry!!!
communication: its another important key as well, its not just normal communication but you have to understand their needs, ones & problems...do you have quiet times with yr love ones? asking deeper question, trying to know more...take some time out and try, you will tend to listen amazing thing from he/she. always let he/she do the talking first and LISTEN...listening is very important...ask the right ques rather then lame & out of the point ques.
after crapping for so long, i hope those who read will try to understand what i had said...
today i'm suppose to go to church but i din cuz sharyn overslpt even i gave her 2 morning calls...sigh! stop slping so much la...reach her flat and we headed down to northbridge for dim sum but its like so jammed packed. we're so sick of waiting then we just turn to the vietnamese resturtant next door...ate lotsa again, still have to eat part of her share cuz she always cant finish her food...haha! brunch was good it lasted me the whole afternoon and we had gelare ice cream for tea time. my fav strawberry ice cream!!! yummy...window shopping ard the city...nothing much to buy also...but in fact is that no $$$ la...hahaha!
rice paper wrapped with pork & prawn
egg noodles with braised duck - mine
pork & prawn rice noodles - sharyn's
going now, i got to do my part...helping out with the gals with some cooking...claypot rice wor! wonder what will it turn out to be? hehehe! =P
moo'd @ 8:33 PM
