where will you go when you finally go?

Appreciation of the Mystery

2010-05-05T01:31:00.001+08:00

Ephesians 3:14-21

14 For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, 15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, 16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

first post

2010-01-07T20:34:00.003+08:00

what update? errr...

i'm into photography now. got myself a Canon 500D DSLR with 18-200mm lens kit, and a early birthday present all the way from Hong Kong (on its way now by FedEx...), a Sigma 50mm f/1.4 Prime lens which is normally used for portraits. =)

its like back to studies thou, due to the amount of data that i needa read up & hands on technique that needa undertake.

its really fun thou... here are some pics that i had taken~

btw i had graduated!!! wee~~~ my last semester result was a distinction and a credit.

i think tts abt it... MY FACEBOOK will tells u more about my update! haha... till now, chao outside muthafucka!

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Now playing: OneRepublic - Secrets
via FoxyTunes

Hearing and Doing the Word

2009-08-09T01:38:00.002+08:00

It is God’s will that we should read
His Word from day to day,
Not just for knowledge, but much more
To love Him and obey. —Hess

6 months & 3 days

2009-07-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

thats the amount of time since i last blogged~
i almost dunno how to blog?... tts true thou.
what should i write?
what should i type?
what should i say?

just felt so weird...

alright, lets start with uni...
ended semester 1 with 3 passes & a distinction.
and the next and FINAL semester of my uni life is about to start this coming monday!
thats BORING!!! STRESS TIME is here again!

what else? should i talked about.....

many things happened on & off my life~
whether does it includes me or not~
whether it matters to me or not~
my life still goes on from where i am.

it may sound kinda EMO, perhaps i just wanna whine? complaint? or bitch abt it? haha... hell yes, i do bitch.

oh ya, i met up with a number of old buddies & frens... and there's more i havent meet up with. so sorry~ i'm lazy...sigh! i felt bad...

errrr, i will blog more in possible, if i want to.
signing off~

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Now playing: Norah Jones - Don't Know Why

genuine post

2009-01-18T22:00:00.004+08:00

i have received my advance birthday present from bb, which is a hard decision between a LV key pouch/card holder or an oakley limited edition sunnies aka Livestrong Radar...

but i got to choose the sunnies instead.

am really delighted with the gift, so next time when i'm at the green or range... i got a sport sunnies~ HEHE... who's not happy to receive presents? I'AM OVERWHELMED.

an update of my 08 semester 2 results, i nearly got 4 DISTINCTIONS! sadly i didn't, i whine hips abit it cuz i'm unable to make bb eat her words...so in total i obtained 2 distinctions(78 & 72) & 2 HIGH credits of 68 & 69.

alright then, 1more week to CNY reunion dinner! can't wait... so bye for now, update soon~ =)

CBF

2009-01-03T12:25:00.001+08:00

i'm still unavailable to blog even thou its a new year.

msg me in facebook then...

p/s: CBF- Cant Be Fucked

2008-10-29T20:39:00.002+08:00

i have abandon this blog of mine since some donkey kong months ago... i'm just wondering where is the drive from me, updating entries here while people is able to communicate thru so many forms of telecommunications. sigh~ i ponder for ages and finally i'm able to relate what i'm trying to say in simple form of english language.

firstly, i'm lazy to blog. secondly, i dun think there's a need to keep updating every day or week...or so ever~ third, i'm just too tired and busy with uni stuff...as of right now, i'm still caught up one major report due this coming friday and why did i make time to blog? perhaps to clarify all the points. seriously!!! assignments, reports & presentation is driving me nuts for the past few weeks or so... four, i'm not motivate to write some stuff anymore... five, ppl might think i should share my happiness & sorrows here, yes i did for the past 3yrs... but com'on~ everyone has grown up & mature when they age including me.

i'm not giving up on this blog just yet, but entries will be hell slow. call me lazy or whatever you like, its just life. everyone has to move on...

finals is due in 3weeks time... am confident that i will score well, cause from the internal marks i'm standing at...*fingers crossed* 3-4 distinction is on its way! yes, i'm human...i do slack, but when the time comes. you cant stop me from scoring high! carrera~~~ carrera~~~ here i come, you bloody beauty!

thats all folks... =)

lazy

2008-09-01T21:43:00.002+08:00

wah... i was shocked to see the last entry dated back july! and its 1st september now! wah wah.... my hazel bee has been here in perth with me for 2.5mths and now she's back... leaving me here to endure another 2.5mths of studies before i could get to see her again... you have been missed~

summary of the month

2008-07-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

the bEE has been here for almost a month!

there's so many things that happened, both high & low times...

we experienced alot during our trip in queensland, one of those is our apartment in gold coast & the BACKPACKERS in brisbane! haha...totally gone wrong to a certain sense. i'm just to lazy to post the pics... fyi, view it at mine or hazel's photo albums~

love the theme parks, the rides, the place, the krispy kreme donuts!!! having cold turkey since my last taking 2week ago, haha....

of all the themeparks, seaworld is a waste of money & time! cuz no more killer whale~ dreamworld was alright - BIG but nothing much... movieworld was my favourite! superman & batman rides...etc~!

i having been snacking on suppers & junk but i aint putting up any weight~ argh! and i ate alot during meal times except for breakfast. sigh!

oh ya, i'm totally overwhelmed by my semester 1 results with 2 Distinctions, a Credit & Pass. bEE said that if i get 3 Ds next semester, she will get me ANYTHING, i will take a shot at that.

i will be a multi millionaire this coming tuesday being the sole winner of the 50million TOTO. HEHE....i'm not dreaming, its for real.

hopefully, i wrapped up the entry for the month... =P

cow meets bee

2008-06-21T12:59:00.003+08:00

its been almost 4months since i last seen her...
not even in webcam cause i refuse~ *weird*
but just from her regular updates of pictures.

she may look different now but i'm looking forward to fetch her at the airport in an hour's time cause i got someone to torture! wahaha...

i miss you so....

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Now playing: 陈小春 - 独家记忆

dun bother!

2008-06-17T13:41:00.004+08:00

i nvr felt so free since months back...

its either i'm busy with upcoming presentation or rushing my assignments and grp report. lastly 2wks back, i'm mugging on my books & notes... where i almost set fire on it~ haha!

as of now, freedom is what i recieve~ can relax one corner for the coming 6wks till semester starts again. haha!

following is a couple of pics taken when i was totally bored when i'm studying in the library! haha... you know when one's bored, they tend to play with anything!

btw the criggs got best before date one leh~ so tt means, u open alrdy can last till e best before date? or what? haha....

old gun

2008-06-09T14:02:00.003+08:00

i was browsing through the first page of the blog.
i was quite taken aback by the NUMBER of entries i had.

there's only like 10 or less since my arrival for this semester. i'm rather active in facebook instead where new pics will be upload or tagged.

the exam fever arises and tension is so high...
knowledge is power but its hard to pull the switch~

was talking to mark last night, he also agreed that when one is old, is easier for one to understand theories and mature in certain aspects of life, but the mind is not as fresh as the young guns in class, worst harder to memorise!!!

back to books!

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Now playing: Bon Jovi - Living on a Prayer

King of Europe

2008-05-22T13:21:00.002+08:00

i stood up to watch the match
i had 2 flat-whites few hours before
i havent slpt since i woke up at 7am ytd morning
i was shivering under my blanket cuz its raining
i glued my eyes to the tv set
i swear at the chelsea players
i jump on my bed and *silent* scream when ronaldo scored
i chant and sing
i was damn tulan when chelsea got to equalise
i smoke during half time
i ate rock salt & vinegar chips
i saw giggs came upon
i watched the match with excitement till full time
i don't want history to repeat itself like last year FA cup
i was swearing when chelsea attacked
i watch the final whistle blown
i hate penalties shoot out
i watched ronaldo miss, terry hit pole, giggs deliver the deadly blow and van dar sar saved anelka's spotkick

and

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!
Hands Hail High for Manchester United

p/s: i'm so so busy...

rush hour

2008-05-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

i'm still alive...

dun erase me off just yet...

so busy with assignments, presentations & projects!

so exhausted, drained and beat~

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Now playing: One Republic - Mercy

Wherever wherever wherever you go

2008-04-23T18:58:00.002+08:00

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while
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life's beautiful when you worked out something that you see in future, even thou its just for a while but it even matters most if you see something in the long run.

my vision is clear, its been like this since last august.

its so unbelievable, yet it happens. my prayers and worries had been answered, where i know it may seem like forever...

able to know you, i realise what kind a person i'm... getting to know myself even more, and (at times) able to put myself into your shoes, understanding the values and the love we shared. i thank you for all these patience and loving care.

you're something beautiful that had happen to me...

i <3 you.

what you say?

2008-04-13T12:28:00.002+08:00

we have to endure long periods of time without much communication, so every call & msg was like a treat whenever we finally get to hear from each other.

i know it maybe hard for both of us, but what's important now is to really put our focus on our studies/exam ahead... after that, we will be enjoying ourselves with each other's companion in the coming weeks.

with every single day passes by, i would be wondering how and what you're doing...

it's rather natural for one to respond like this to the words of those who are important to us. we eagerly anticipate hearing from each other.

i adore, i care, i miss you... even thou communication wasn't there.

your words encourage me to move on, even thou the days ahead are tough...

to love you, weiwei. my feelings just explode... because you're my bb my precious one.

lazy

2008-04-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

there's so many things i wanna do, but what really matters is TIME.

yes, i got time in hand but i think i couldn't manage it properly.

or i should put it this way that i'm really LAZY!!!

for example: just a moment ago, i was surfing for new blog skin, and i just gave up looking for it after like 5mins of browsing? haha... and i changed my blog's music, even thou its blocking the headers, i edited it for abit...and i just cant be bother with it... waste of time on such things, i must say.

hopefully the next entry would be a better one...yawns!

waste of time?

2008-03-26T17:52:00.003+08:00

half a week of holiday had gone to waste with assignment taking up most of the time... its back to the stressful period yet again, where i would race against the clock to complete my work in time. that really sucked.

the number 1 thing, i wanna do right now is DRINK till i drop which i don't have to worry about anything...

number 2 would be DRINK till i stop which i needa finish up my work.

number 3, there's no no.3.

sickening la... i almost lost the interest to blog about what i did here, cause i find that its like a daily routine or norm now!

eat, sleep, shit, bathe, smoke, study. drive, drink and work (+ online) = 24/7.

tts life...whats more to that? tell me about it...

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Now playing: Miley Cyrus - See You Again

劲歌金曲2

2008-03-19T18:24:00.002+08:00

its been 3years since leo ku(古巨基) released his medley of 劲歌金曲, and in 2008, his new medley of 劲歌金曲2 is out now.

i downloaded the songs last night, and Love Song King(情歌王) is his latest hit of various songs and artists. its randomly playing in my head and in my ipod as well.

compared to the last medley, all songs are in chinese thou, but i still likes both due to its distinctive features of songs & language of chinese and cantonese. =)

the following is Love Song King(情歌王) lyrics:

（forever love 王力宏）
愛你不是因為你的美而已
我越來越愛你
每個眼神觸動我的心

（兩個人的煙火黎明）
最愛你的是我
否則你怎麼讓我
否則我怎麼可能赴湯蹈火
你說什麼都做

（如果•愛張學友）
如果這就是愛
在轉身就該勇敢留下來
就算受傷就算流淚
都是生命裏溫柔灌溉

（童話光良）
我要變成童話裏
你愛的那個天使
張開雙手
變成翅膀守護你
你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裏

（很愛很愛你劉若英）
往更多幸福的地方飛去
很愛很愛你只有讓你擁有愛情
我才安心

（我願意王菲）
我願意為你我願意為你
我願意為你忘記我姓名
只要你真心拿愛與我回應
我什麼都願意為你

（好想好想古巨基）
好想好想好想好想
好想好想和你在一起

（明天我要嫁給你了周華健）
明天我要嫁給你啦
明天我要嫁給你啦
要不是你問我
要不是你勸我
要不是適當的時候你讓我心動

（不得不愛潘瑋柏/玄子）
天天都需要你愛
我的心思由你猜
i love you
我就是要你讓我每天都精彩

（陰天莫文蔚）
開始總是分分鐘
都妙不可言
誰都以為熱情它永不會減

總之那幾年
感性贏了理性那一面

（飛機場的10:30 陶喆）
baby baby baby baby　O　baby　baby O　baby　
是不是擁有以後就會開始要失去
我給你的越多
你卻越想要躲
愛已無法回答所有的問題

（那麼愛你為什麼黃品源/莫文蔚）
離開你是傻是對是錯
是看破是軟弱
這結果是愛是恨或者是什麼

（你怎麼捨得我難過黃品源）
最愛你的人是我
你怎麼捨得我難過
對你付出了這麼多
你卻沒有感動過

（愛我別走張震嶽）
愛我別走
如果你說你不愛我
不要聽見你真的說出口
再給我一點溫柔

（讓我歡喜讓我憂周華健）
就請你給我多一點點時間
再多一點點問候
不要一切都帶走
就請你給我多一點點空間
再多一點點溫柔
不要讓我如此難受

（原來你什麼都不想要張惠妹）
原來你什麼都不想要
我不要你的承諾
不要你的永遠

只要你真真切切愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好,貪心也好
最怕你把沉默,當做對我的回答
原來你什麼都不想要

（用心良苦張宇）
你說你想要逃
偏偏註定要落腳
情滅了愛熄了
剩下空心要不要

（祝福張學友）
傷離別離別雖然在眼前
說再見再見不會太遙遠
若有緣有緣就能期待明天
你和我重逢在燦爛的季節

（吻別張學友）
我和你吻別在無人的街
讓風癡笑我不能拒絕
我和你吻別在狂亂的夜
我的心等著迎接傷悲

（把悲傷留給自己陳升）
能不能讓我陪著你走
既然你說留不住你
回去的路有些黑暗
擔心讓你一個人走

（征服那英）
就這樣被你征服切斷了所有退路
我的心情是堅固我的決定是糊塗

（聽海張惠妹）
聽海哭的聲音嘆惜著誰又被傷了心

（味道辛曉琪）
象你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡煙草味道
記憶中曾被愛的味道

（我懷念的孫燕姿）
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起作夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動

我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手
最暖的胸口

（領悟辛曉琪）
我多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只願你掙脫情的枷鎖
愛的束縛任意追逐
別再為愛受苦

（月亮惹的禍張宇）
都是你的錯在你的眼中
總是藏著讓人又愛又憐的朦朧
都是你的錯你的癡情夢
像一個魔咒
被你愛過還能為誰蠢動

（我們的愛 fir）
我們的愛
過了就不再回來
直到現在
我還默默的等待

我們的愛
我明白
已變成你的負擔
只是永遠
我都放不開
最後的溫暖

（你把我灌醉黃大偉）
你把我灌醉你讓我流淚
扛下了所有罪我拼命挽回
你把我灌醉你讓我心碎愛得收不回

（眼淚範曉萱）
oh 眼淚
眼淚都是我的體會
成長的滋味
oh 眼淚
忍住眼淚不讓你看見
我在改變
孤單的感覺
你從不曾發現
我笑中還有淚

（情非得已庚澄慶）
只怕我自己會愛上你
不敢讓自己靠的太近
怕我沒什麼能夠給你
愛你也需要很大的勇氣

（你是如此難以忘記梁朝偉）
你是如此的難以忘記
浮浮沉沉的在我心裏
改變自己需要多少勇氣
翻騰的心情該如何平息

（心太軟任賢齊）
你總是心太軟心太軟
把所有問題都自己扛
相愛總是簡單相處太難
不是你的就別再勉強

（forever love 王力宏）
forever love forever love
我只想用我這一輩子去愛你
從今以後
你會是所有
幸福的理由

forever love
forever love
forever love
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i could sing along in almost every part of it...

i would like to decidate this to my bb and closed ones.

love lots
steven

plain lazy

2008-03-09T12:58:00.005+08:00

2 whole weeks since i last saw your pretty face, while i could feel, bite and to hold you... and perhaps in like 12++ weeks to go before i could touch you once again...

yet for now, we should be prepared for our upcoming barrier ahead of us, exams!!! assignments, projects, presentation.... i still got tons of articles to be read. sick!!!

my words are froze,
my tongues are tight,
my feelings is strong,
my love never fades.

"It’s not what you do but who you are that’s most important."

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Now playing: Miley Cyrus - See You Again

the best friend

2008-02-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

an extract from Our Daily Bread:

It’s an honor I cherish, and one I seek to live up to—but I don’t always do it. It’s the privilege of hearing my wife say, “You’re my best friend,” which she does often. As much as I love her, though, I occasionally do something that is not so “best friend-ish.”

In reality, no matter how hard we try, we cannot live up to the high standard of being a friend who never lets others down. We all fail from time to time—forgetting to do what we should or simply allowing selfishness to build a barrier between us.
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its just a blessing that i had found someone who is or rather in a matter of time, my future "best friend" in life down the road...

yet after a few setbacks, i'm up and running... embarking on a greater height and pushing my limit off the scale, where there would have obstacles ahead, we could even break through the thick ice berg...even friends send me their blessing where i could really felt it from their remarkable words...

stayed on hazel, lets take a step together...

loving you always, steven.

updates...

2008-02-26T18:19:00.002+08:00

its been 3days since i saw you... yet you still appear vividly in my mind becuz you're my ah bee~ hehe...

thank you for your support and encouragement, same goes to you too k.

lets save up and prepare for our next trip yah, *wink*
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i'm so not use to the current change, with the first week of classes started yesterday... i had felt the OUCH and PAIN in the coming weeks...

its gonna be a real challenge; waking up early in the morning for classes 3 days straight, adapt back to this boring boring place and full throttle to the assignments and tests ahead... wah lan eh, gan sianz lo!!!
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the flight SQ223 from singapore to perth on sunday morning was horridness and its my first and hopefully my last that happened. it departed at 9.30+ and after around 2hours of flying, the captain of the flight reported that something in dunno where was wrong or not working. he informed us that the plane will be landing in jarkata for inspection instead.

all the passengers were held up in the holding area in the jarkata airport for almost 2 hours before we resume flying and the plane landed in perth around 8pm++ and it took another hour before we clear the custom.

its a dreadful 12hours of plane ride and waiting! its worse than the army...

oh ya, fyi... we didn't had a proper meal during our flight... cause the food was reheated and shortly it stopped at jarkata for 2hrs++, the flight attendant was afraid or its a procedure not to serve food after a certain time after reheat.

we were serve lots of drinks, biscuits, cheddar cheese and lousy pastries from jarkata! THATS ALL. 2x thumbs down to you, Singapore Air.

i'm not very please with the service, even thou its not planned.

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hello semester 1

2008-02-22T11:30:00.003+08:00

don't get my wrong, i'm totally not keen in returning back to BORING LAND to resume my uni life. perhaps due to the super long break that i had, my bones had already turned to fine sand and my mind is blocked up with cob webs! haha...

with just 2days 2nights left in SG, seriously pls tell me... what's the number 1 thing to do? i'm left with nothing much to think about, cause the moment i thought or ask about when's my departure... my heart just sank~~~ the feeling sucked big time.

oh well, this would be my last blog entry in SG... to be honest, i don't even want to blog abt it... total sianz!

i will miss you very much... cross my heart~ muckz!

less than a week

2008-02-18T00:18:00.004+08:00

in a matter of days... i will be sucked back to the SHIT HOLE...

there's when the cycle goes again...

stucked up... stressed up... pissed up...

why must it be all hatred and anger?

perhaps WHY i asked myself.

where the road ahead is already set for me by God,

whereby i have to stand on my own feet and walk towards the light.

I would like to thank you for all the concern, warmth and attention spent.

up and going

2008-02-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

alrighty, these are some pics i wanna show in my previous post...

and yes, its my hair cut... *note* pls dun criticise cause even my old man didn't even said a word about it, so who are you telling me all these shit?

before and after...

finished with this....
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27jan
my birthday entry, its not a teenage or any normal or "not-normal" adult celebration cause its just plain normal and i love it cause i get to spend it with my loved ones...

dinner@ecp with my parents and hazel on the eve of bday, and nothing BIG happened that night...

cause i'm gearing up for the actual day's big meal @ angus steakhouse where i had my first wagyu beef. its so tender!!! so juicy!!! so yummy!!! its a must-go place. love it so much... bee, bring me there on v-day ok? hehehe, and not to forget, thanxs for the big meal.

thank you everyone for their wishes! =D

we met up with the rest at ecp irish pub, where we drink, eat, and chat our nights away...

i was feeling good and going after all those nights of food & drinks that i was attacked by the predator - the stomach virus aka stomach flu on monday night... i couldn't slp, i could hardly walk, talk, eat... i wasn't admitted to the hospital but i did drove myself and bee to a nearby clinic... thats when i knew about the illness~

i haven't been suffering from such illness or fever since like 3years plus ago, and i haven't even seen a doctor for that long too... sometimes the body just couldn't control what goes in and out of it...

since tuesday afternoon, i have been switching on and off the illness symptoms where even one night i woke up at least 5-7 times to ensure i didn't shit fart myself in the pants. it may sound pretty gross! but seriously, its hunting and scary to be sick!

as of now, i'm feelin' much better as you can see cause i'm blogging... haha!
i guess the next entry would be after CNY, and its like next week? next next week?

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Now playing: Rihanna - Please Don't Stop the Music

no more 金龙 & 肉骨妹...

2008-01-23T01:53:00.000+08:00

my weekly 9pm slot is free now, yet i felt alil sour as my favourite show, 黄金路(Golden Path), has already finished airing.

if you guys missed any of it or wants to watch it?
you can click on the following link --- <<黄金路剧集>>

sigh... i think i'm a hardcore fan of this show! haha....

我们都该回头看看来时路
就算起凤偶尔有雾模糊不了幸福

我们都该在心里数数感动的次数
谁陪你疯谁陪你笑拍拍肩一起追逐

多少爱错过了才看清楚
多少事无法弥补才认输
多少次以为找到了幸福
却发现一开始就是个错误

每一段路都是一段领悟
珍珠再夺目留不住心头热呼呼
真心的鼓舞能温暖一生的旅途

每一段路难免荆棘密布
把坚持牢牢握住不怕艰难险阻
学会去爱就不会迷路

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Now playing: 迷路兵 - 路

this is a special announcement

2008-01-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

i'm left with 5weeks of stay... i had spend my past 2months here with bliss yet a little bitter.

why couldn't you guys understand for abit?
why must things messed up like this?
why does all good things come to an end?
why is there so much family politics?

i'm so SICK of it.
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birthday presents arrived early this year, all thanks to mummy & hazel who bought me SE K850i and a Limited Edition Red PSP slim. am really thankful... =D

and i'm addicted in PSP, playing to wherever i go. haha but not in the bathroom.
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been staying at my new place, not Ang Mo Kio... yap i shifted fyi to Eunos, its like a holiday resort cause i'm only there during the weekends, haha...

my queen size bed is like a drug to me, once you laid on it, the next moment you're knock out regardless how tired are you! its tested and proved by hazel.

pics of my new room/place will be up soon... haha

i really love my new home. =)
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i guess the next entry would be next week thou, i cant believe i'm turning 25 next week.
SHIT is the word.

my mummy kept saying i'm old enough to get married, have kids, and a career already yet NOW, i'm not. in the eye's of a mom, her kids will be kids till he has a family but still they're still kids in her eyes... i love you mummy.

p/s: i cut & dyed my hair! haha...pics soon~

blink of an eye, its 2008

2008-01-01T04:23:00.000+08:00

as everyone usher in the new year... let's not forget what had happen in 2007...

as for me, a great number of things but yet most of them has yet been forgotten.

here's a list for what i had remember correctly and in no order...

i got in to university and i'm please with my results! thats a prayer answered by God.
i got close frens around, showerin' me with love, givin' me support, killin' my loneliness...
my old man's operation was a success and i love him as much as my mom!
i hardly take money from my mom unless i'm broke. =X
i'm still sad, bored, lonely, pissed, or "whatever word" when i'm in perth. that SUCKED.
party hard, drink hard, smoke hard, screw hard, work hard, spend hard and study hard.
i found my love, hazel. (she's slping like a pig now...yes, she's one fat pig!)

alrighty, above is 7 which represent 2007, my fav num and the list of not to forget...

closing this final entry of 2007, but it state 2008 first post... lets look forward to the future and work hard towards our goals.

peace out moo~

merry xmas and a happy boxing day

2007-12-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

i celebrated both of my last 2 years of christmas with close frens ('05) and in perth ('06), but for 2007 is totally a different thing... even thou, the tempo of xmas wasn't really there but i'm just overwhelmed that i had someone loving to spend my xmas with, even thou we did nothing much... but we ended up in zouk.... pics below~
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finally, i met up with lavender buddy - kristin, we havent met up for a year++... i'm so ecstatic to see HER cause she's suppose to be in SG early this year but due to some cock up, she couldn't.

sharyn and kitty was here too, met up with a perth (sg) fren, melvin and i invited hazel and ah gal for dinner as well~

we proceed to mind's cafe in boat quay after dinner... it was a crazy, fun and laughter night to end on a high note~

ty for coming gals, ty so much!
these are memories that will be kept...
these frenships will never die, as it grows...

p/s: where's my pics that we took!!!
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Christmas Eve @ Zouk

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Now playing: Alvin & the Chipmunks - The Chipmunk Song - Christmas Don't Be Late
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pat on the back

2007-12-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

well done to myself, i must say...

as i have put in my utmost in my final examinations, my results were better compare to my previous semester.

i obtained a result of 2 pass, 1 credit and a high distinction but my parents wasn't so encouraging of the results... i know i have put in effort and it has not go to waste, so whatever they said, is not gonna tear me down.

seriously, without the presence of God, i wouldn't have come this far. as i believe in him, he shows me the way of light and to attain what i have now.
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i'm enjoying my holiday, every moment with hazel, my parents and loved ones... time just pass by so quickly, that i'm unable to catch hold of it... i have to use the time i have now to good use!

need to know

2007-12-05T13:01:00.000+08:00

i'm back for 2weeks... this blog has been left untouched almost 2weeks too...

its not that i got nothing to say or blog about... but everything is evolving around you, so one word to complete it is: happiness.

i need to make time for my loved ones, where i hope my frens could understand my position. its easy to say but fuckin' difficult to measure and scale between both parties. sigh~ you may think i'm bullshittin' and i'm seriously thinking of how to do it. i'm guilty and don't feel good. i just hope you could understand me. we'll meet again, i promise.

1 Corinthians 13

2007-11-22T01:03:00.000+08:00

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails....
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i'm really thankful for all the wonderful things that is enveloping me... i'm confident in my exam cause i had put in my utmost effort, i'm back in Singapore and able to see my parents and loved ones, and last but not least my lord who is my shepherd who had guided me my path and had answered my prayers... i'm pleased, overwhelmed and love, but the greatest of these is love.

bye semester 2

2007-11-19T10:01:00.000+08:00

finally its over for now...

felt so good...

not much to blog about...

just that i'm gonna packed my stuff today...

haha.... see you, Singapore TOMORROW MORNING!!!

i wanna go home

2007-11-18T20:20:00.000+08:00

the exam fever is gonna settle down really soon in 13hrs time, i will be a free man that wanna get HIGH and DRUNK. haha... still kinda worried thou but am still taking some time off to blog this entry...

perhaps something that i have bottled down, or maybe i couldn't make up my words... sometimes words is just so complicated but yet silence just makes you feel at ease...

nevertheless, with just a day to GO... i will be be ready to board my flight on tuesday morning. with my hopes and dreams alive again, haha... sound so dramatic! emotional you must said, when this morning i saw this mtv that touched me. the mtv made me miss you so much...

finally i can get to see you, i hav been yearning all day long... its been 79days since we last met. i could get to hate & love you, even torture & disturb you, lastly dote & pamper you! hehe...

its one of my all time favourite. do enjoy!
宝贝，我要回来了。

from at the library

2007-11-17T12:30:00.000+08:00

i struggled and pull through, to do my utmost in the thursday, tourism managment paper.... i cracked my brain cells, which resulted to an excessive useage of brain juice and its totally exhausted after the paper in the evening...

at least a huge burden down cause for the coming paper on monday morning, i'm rather confident but i just to screw all the accounting theories and practices into my pea brain...

after all these shit, i will be packing my bag and flying back to Singapore on the same night~ i cant wait to see my family, love ones and frens! haha... i kinda relax now, that i can even blog & play poker in the library cause i stopped my revision... =X

baobei, i can get to see u soon.... just 3 more nights~ hohoho~

fucked in the mind.

2007-11-13T18:56:00.000+08:00

tension within me builds up with each passing day since my last entry...

focus on my accounting last week but i'm still 2 chapters short, when i switched over to my management on sunday till now. every drop of my brain juice has been sucked dried by the theories, definitions and the scorching weather!

the huge burden on me, just makes me lose my sanity!

with the stress level so HIGH... i got the urge to take my papers now.... seriously, i'm so sick of waiting cause the build up tension is so sickening and unbearable!!!

I SUPER HATE THIS FEELING.
i just cant wait for it to end and be back in SG in no time...

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Now playing: Timbaland - Apologize (feat One Republic)
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happy me

2007-11-06T12:14:00.000+08:00

what's happiness all about? and
what makes you the happiest?

there are a number of things that evolves me...(in no order)

- get to enjoy the simple things in life. (eat, shit, smoke, drink, sex....etc)
- able to keep up the pace of my life, esp uni. (kinda stressful)
- prioritised my life...
- LOVE! (baobei, family and close frens)
- stress-free. (very hard to attain)

what keeps me going.... thats LOVE, where i'm willingly to make sacrifices for her, cause she become my life or rather comes into my life. thats where i found my little happiness through her. love is when i placed her, right at the top, in things that i do and respect her as my half.

this is why & when i think of her every second when she's not around, she would be the first person that comes into my mind when i'm having fun or sharing my happy moments with and able to hug her in my arms when i wake up or going to bed. holding her hand, walking on the streets or just spending our afternoon lazing around.

i think, i must have.... fallen deeply in love with you, hazel.

oakley gascan ducati

2007-11-05T20:58:00.000+08:00

after much anticipation, my oakley sunnies is here! it arrived a day earlier than expected...

i was kinda shocked, cause i didn't realised that the parcel had arrived and sign for by my brother till i checked the online tracker of the item. i went back to the living room to retrieve my precious sunnies. super overwhelmed and very satisfied~ thats the feeling when you purchase things from the net. hehe~ =)

pics to share... taken from the net.

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baobei, this is for you....

cute right? hehehe...XOXO~
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luckily, i didn't struggle today for my revision in the library(silent zone), as i thought i would cause accounting is a NO NO for me... hopefully, for the next few days, i'm able to understand and pull it thru with a stunt~ haha...

its coming

2007-11-02T18:09:00.000+08:00

finally i got to purchase my second pair of oakley sunnies, its been like 4years since the last one... for now, i upgraded to gascan ducati limited edition design. the first time it caught my eye is when, casey stoner, an aussie who won the moto gp in phillip island. even thou its kinda plain but i feel it unique and nice. i'm still waiting for its arrival from the states this tuesday...hehe!

will be sitting for 2 exam papers, i'm kinda glad with my other 2 non-exam units... most likely a distinction or better and a credit for consumer behaviour and international business. with accounting and tourism mgt left on the shelve that i need to pull thru... kinda headache, as my finals is like 13 days away... preparing and gearing up for the last push of this year...

after that, is GOLD... my ultimate prize = my hazeL bee. i begin to miss her badly, even thou i'm meeting her real soon... issit becuz i'm anxious? or just in need of touch and affection? i will stick to the second one... haha!

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Now playing: Boys Like Girls - The Great Escape
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fact, facts and more facts

2007-10-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

life havent been that FREE when you're caught up with deadlines for assignments, projects, presentations and tests...

yet, the poor soul still have to study for the past 2days for test today... with not enough deep slp, and the mind just urge you to be vigilant and focus on the book and handouts. it just makes you sleepy! even redbull becomes slpy-bull. with the help of a LITTLE push by hazel, everything just seems so well... even waking up in the morning cold is alright and the air smells so fresh. (i aint no poet but everything is true)

with the finals just round the corner, lazy or slack is not an option. all these 'pain' and sufferings are temporary, while i crosses the finishing line thats GOLD. say no more...

once i passed this stage, everything just seem like flying... YAH what i meant was me, my backpack and my luggage is flying in mothership to motherland. *blink blink*

i hate you.....

2007-10-27T18:40:00.000+08:00

yes, i'm talking about you, BWW!

you wanna know why?

there's a number of things i wanna say, its all in there.

click for===> LYRICS

hopefully i wont get screwed over this stunt. haha....
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currently, i'm still writing up my last report of this semester and running out of time to study for my coming test this tuesday! i needa get cracking... or else, i'm doom!

in less than 4weeks, moo will strikes back in SG. be afraid, be very afraid... WAHAHA!!!!

disappointed

2007-10-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

pertaining to the above title, i'm very sadden early in the morning... and till now.

i bought the lottery tickets for last night's draw of 30million, opposite my uni. and i checked tt i didn't strike the jackpot nor any prizes... i sorta got over it straight away...

i was driving to uni this morning, while listening to the radio when it said that the sole winner was from perth and the winning ticket is from the place i bought my tickets! it came to a total shocked and disappointment with a mixture of emotions.

in uni, my frens were talking abt it... back home, family members continue abt the same topic...

this shit started my morning and till now.... pissed off~

p/s: its a student from my uni. thats even more pissed~

back to basics

2007-10-20T14:16:00.000+08:00

am still recovering from the loud music and screams from the linkin park concert. i really enjoyed it, even thou the crowd (mostly aussies) are rowdy and its SUPER ROWDY! the first, i ever seen... getting to be so close to the stage, able to see chester's broken wrist, tattoos...hahn scratching on the dj set and mike playing the keyboard is worth the long hours of standing... and audioslave's chris cornell too.

it states no cameras is allowed... still i got punked and see lots with cameras!!! sadly i have to use the 1.3 megapixels camera phone to take snaps... argh!!!

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Now playing: Linkin Park - No More Sorrow
via FoxyTunes

i'm going to LP concert

2007-10-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

my fav song from their new album...
do enjoy, even thou its a slow song.
rock on~~

is 24 hours in a day enough?

2007-10-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

for the upcoming weeks, will pass by like a blink of an eye!

cause i gotta sort out what my mind is processing and really focus on my work or else i will be nag dead by her. the first ever person who nags non stop and daily to me, for that i do appreciate her EFFORTS but on the other hand, it seems like ~~hell~~ (erm...not a right word.) never ending! haha... by blogging this, definitely i will see blood tonight!!!

seriously, if i strike tonight's top prize of 25 million lottery draw... i will deferred my studies for a year and embark on a world life journey around the world... Weeee~~~ first stop: Singapore! haha...
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happy birthday, my dear.
the joy in you by the love i show,
and the words spoken never change in season,
how good it is!

heat me up

2007-10-13T15:05:00.000+08:00

relaxing just for now as i have been rushing to complete my ~~accounting~~ assignment for the past few days that is due yesterday and i cant finished it without the help of my hazeL bee. thanxs!

2 more presentation this coming week, with little progress!
few more assignments and reports due the following weeksss...
exam timetable is out.
all of these are kinda stressing me out, hope its a good thing.

blogging to you from my bed, am just feeling lazy and restless thou.

simple words

2007-10-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

everyone has their ups and downs and i recovered from my low... i'm feeling good and at my high once again, loving you! hehe... you can argue that its sunshine or rainbow after the rain. everything has been cleared... HOO RAY!!!

you're someone so precious, thats why i call you my 宝贝(bao bei).
you're someone so silly, thats why i call you my silly gal.
you're someone so dearly, thats why i call you my dear.
you're someone so scary, thats why i call you my monSTer.
you're someone so wild, thats why i call you my bitch. ops... =X
you're someone i love, thats why i call you my love.
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lets side track abit, i got few things to add:
aching all over NOW after 2 days of gardening...
super hate noisy children... they simply pisses me off~
haven't finished any assignments due to my lazyness.
love playing poker in facebook.
disappointed in the loss of the Wallabies and All Blacks in the rugby world cup.
man utd won 4 - ZERO over wigan... hehe~

words of fear

2007-10-05T12:19:00.000+08:00

WARNING!!!
the following entry contains traces of guilt, hurt and sadness.
if you feel disturbed, unsettled or whatever.
PLEASE LEAVE THIS BLOG.
and do keep the fucking comments to yourself.
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everyone has secrets, either good or bad... so do i, and pretty much of bad ones i presume or rather YES. i felt remorseful and ashame of myself after telling you the things that i have done before.

referring to this entry secrets, do you? almost 2years ago...

i said something like this:
i believe there are secret that we could not tell until the time is right and that again... how can we be sure that the time is right?

i have to agree with that, its better to come clean but how fast? after all it could be justifiable.

i guess the main reason of a secret to think about is the purpose of that secret....

my purpose is to come clean, and not to hide anything good/bad from you. cause i want to have a health ongoing stable relationship without secrets so there wont be doubts about the future...
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i may have hurt you, and i'm really very sorry about it. i do hope you understand the plight i'm in of why i told you that last night.

i'm not showing others of who i'm nor how good i could treat my dear one. everything i do is truly at my own will, where i will bear any consequences. doesn't seem that the past 2 fail relationship would bring me down, but it made me a changed man.

my purpose of this entry it to let you know that i perfectly know what i want for now and in future. seriously, i don't fucking care how others judge me nor seen me as a weakling loser that long distance r/s wont work out. i'm not showing them the results, but i'm working hard for my future!

i may be hundred over miles away from you, and very well know that virtual communication and telecommunication is not suffice for our r/s to flourish BUT....

the beauty of love lasts a life time. when you're engage in a long distance r/s, it doesn't matter if you're not in the same place or country because LOVE HAS NO DISTANCE.

i'm taking this chance to reassure what and where i'm heading....and thats you. sorry once again for what had happened even thou its the past but take some time to ponder over what i said. i just wants to do my utmost to you in everything with all i can. i know that I LOVE YOU.

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Now playing: Delta Goodrem - In This Life
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love is a many splendid thing

2007-09-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

love makes one cry.
love makes one sing.
love makes one a fool.

love makes one horny.
love makes one go gaga.
love makes one go crazy.

love makes one feel affection.
love makes one feel so closed.
love makes one being missed.

love makes one feel contented.
love makes one to make babies.
love makes one a stronger person.

love makes one would do anything.
love makes one how wonderful life is now.
love makes one go around telling how good ~~her~~ his partner is.
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the list just go on and on... without your love i wouldn't be able to feel all these again. i may be weak and i don't feel secure about the happenings in the past, with your love now, i'm a stronger person, i could even kill a tigress(opps, i dun mean you! haha). really very thankful of all the things you have done for me.

life is full of puzzle and its unpredictable, and you're one of my missing jigsaw puzzle. i never felt this way before, everything i do or anywhere i go i think of you. you're so addictive!!!

你是我的快乐丸子.

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Now playing: MC HotDog + 張震嶽 - 我愛台妹 WO AI WEI WEI.
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screw things up

2007-09-26T16:33:00.000+08:00

half of my one week break is gone, and i havent even start on my assignments and group projects... i have to admit that i'm plain lazy, cause i could only worked when my stress level is high... =Z
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something about women.
they're very strange creatures.

if you do something e way they wanted/asked for or sweet things a 100times, and in return just 1 silly/stupid mistake, they just shoot you a look to kill or perhaps worse.

issit because you have been treating them to nice, and they have already set or expect a high standard from you. you can argue that they're just taking things for granted? (this kind of breed is a total hatred for me!)

and they don't give e look to kill for other guys who messed up a 100times where only does 1 thing right. is that 1 time can have as much feelings compare to a 100times?

if thats e case, i would rather be a guy who messed up things and only do 1 right thing in return. you be the judge!
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you're someone i love,
now i cant live a day without missing you.
i have become a fool that is so attached to you.
where i try to hide you away in my mind sometimes,
but the next day i think about you again.
for the past few weeks, you have been appearing in my sleep.
i always wish it was real, having you close to me by my side.
several hundred dreams to just being happy with your love for one day,
i will take that life cause
i love you.

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she is

2007-09-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

my baobei, my love, my silly bun, my monster, my sidekick and someone who makes me commit crime everyday cause my love for her is a crime. she is my hazeL bee.

its been 3 whole weeks since she left but to me it seems like 3 months instead. i have got so many to say, just that i dunno where to start. many may find that i'm different cause i'm attached but i don't think i have changed thou. perhaps i'm more affection, tts why? but for those who know me, its perfectly normal.

sms, msn, video calls and late night chats, its like never enough... we have like endless topic and stuff to update each other every single night.

p/s: for some i may be damn corny, lame, loser or whatever. to others, i may be sweet....blah blah blah... seriously, who gives a fuck shit?

i say

2007-09-21T15:19:00.000+08:00

i'm still around~

i just got out from stressed zone~

i got assignment due tts why i left this place untouched~

i'm so addicted to face book where i could play texas holdem poker~

i miss my hazeL bee~

*ahem* i wanna *ahem ahem* her~

HEY....

what you thinking? kiss leh....

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thankful

2007-09-17T14:56:00.000+08:00

i was kinda stunned when someone(s) said to me regarding this blog over MSN... it came pretty shocking! its not anything bad, just that friends is also concern about my love life. i got no obligations about it... non invading my privacy, totally fine with it...

i'm just very thankful for those sending best regards for me & hazel. i totally appreciated it.

even my drinking mates like, chang & kevin... they're totally understanding as well... being happy for me, and also kept questioning about juicy/details stuff... haha~ guys do gossips too! trust me, we're one hell of a bitcha~

i was counting down to the finals just now, its like 2more mths!!!

stress level is going up pretty soon... as i only had 2 papers this semester BUT i'm gonna start early and really put in effort or else i gonna disappointed my folks & love ones...

oh well, i'm just killing some time before my next tutorial... oh ya, i'm so addicted to facebook now, i know i'm slow but its really fun. do try it out, add me as your beloved friend at stevi_boi@hotmail.com

oh well, i gonna end my entry now...

silly bun, you drives me crazy thinking about all the things we're gonna do and even the wait is too long for me to endure...

quote of the day: "fear nothing, risk everything

hazel

2007-09-14T16:32:00.000+08:00

i'm really happy that i have met you.

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double shot

2007-09-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

attention guys!

do your partner or girl-friends, bakes you cookies?

if yes! you're in for something...

cause subconsciously, she/they wants to get pregnant.

this may sound damn lame, its told by my lecturer thou...

believe it or not? release your offsprings and you'll know. haha!!!

not my utmost

2007-09-11T12:03:00.000+08:00

i wish i could be there;

to take care of you,
to bring you to the doctor,
to feed you medication,
to pet you to sleep,
to cook for you,
to show my deepest concern,

its my responsibility but i'm unable to keep my words cause i'm so far away. dun feel bad for me, i felt even worse. let me take this chance to reassure everything, i will be by your side (in SG) whenever you need me. sorry for not doing my utmost... love sha tou~

wake me up when november ends

2007-09-09T13:29:00.000+08:00

i hav survived for a week but there's still weeks ahead before i can see her. i don't wanna count, it makes me go crazy with figures!!! esp the accounting test i took last friday...

its kinda hard for the both of us thou, as i know deeply within us... we're yearning to see each other so much... with unlimited sms, calls, msn and video call will keep us accompany cyber-ly together...

a To-Do-List and To-Eat-List will be done when i'm back... i'm bound to have a few surprises cause she had promised me something, hehe... its confidential, i'm unable to share my *ahem-room* secrets. ops~ =X

simply i just wanna say that, i miss her presence and i cant wait to hug her again.

i know it may sound corny or mushy but its just how one express its own feelings. this is how i do it. take it or leave this blog alone, i don't fucking care as long as i'm happy. hahaha~

my silly gal

2007-09-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

for the past few days since the departure of her, i felt rather lonely...

what i'm doing to kill time is rather to attend lectures and tuts but i still thinks of her, i work yet it still reminds me of her, i slack at home the more i misses her!

i just cant shake her off my mind, issit because i'm infected with hazelirus? i'm unable to focus on things, she will just pop into my mind... i wonder its a good or bad thing? depends where you're seeing thou~

from the things she said to me, i know and i'm thankful of it.

a lil quote from her *ahem*, i sure kena up down left right centre from her! but i don't care!!!

" I'll remember what i promise you and I deliver what I promise. I will be waiting for ya return patiently and behave myself! "

" I hope that time can pass real fast so that I can be in your arms again. "

btw that applies to me as well... am i blissful or wat? this is what i called happiness!

you have been missed already

2007-09-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

whats with me at this very moment?

i totally don't feel good at all, sending her into the departure hall was hard, when i finally get to experience such pain since like 2yrs ago... the pain within me is beyond words of description, only those will know when you get to see your love one go off, without you by their side... thats a hard part~

the harder part is for the past 9days, she would be sitting next to me while i drove her around, or even just to get some food to fill our hungry stomach late at night. she's been there; looking at me, teasing me, looking blur (most of the time), taking pics, acting cool, kissing.... i missed the times, and i can bet on that~

the hardest part for now is that my room is so quiet without her funny & loud laughter that even a "bangala" will die listening to her, and she even tried to copy my malaysian accent while we're just talking... (i just checked online that her flight has just departed from perth.) i miss the times, she kept saying that she ate alot cause she really do. *opps* haha! sat infront of the laptop with me, just browsing and surfing around... my room is not messy anymore, without her clothes and stuff lying around every corner. the bed will be empty and the night would be rather cold without the human bolster.

all of these are good memories which will be stored in me. theres alot of feelings, i would like to express but i don't know how to. *cheeeze* the presence of my weiwei is still vivid and fresh in my mind. i would like to thank her, for everything she has done. thank you sha ben.

your absence and the distance between us will make the heart grow fonder, i think its important for me to express all these to my weiwei because she's in my top list that i would do anything to make her feel good and happy (words are free) but honestly i havent felt such strong attraction and feelings for a person since donkey years ago... its gonna be a challenge for this LDR of ours, we will see!

i love you dearly, i'm yours sincerely but baobei do remember everything e bits and pieces k. i will see you in a flash~~~ 3mths time! maid-in-the-making~~~

down south west

2007-08-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

quick facts

travelled at least 800km over the past four days.

drove nonstop for 3 and half hours.

havent had any rice or chilli for my meals.

been kissed countless times... *ahem* not to mention french kiss too!

took lots of photos but i'm not even in half of them!

caught the 'sunset', you will know what i meant.

climbed the lighthouse for the second time with my sha tou(silly head).

drink & drive...

fine lunching @ leeuwin estate

and lots lots more.... let pictures do the talking...
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Entering COW Land - Cowaramup

more COWs

the CMI sunset

Leeuwin Estate - fine lunching
i had '04 shiraz and silly head had '06 chardonnay

entree - scallop

entree - soup

my main - fish of the day (red snapper)

silly head's main - chicken breast and .....???

it was so filling that we didn't even had the chance for desserts - apple crumble with vanilla ice cream....
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the lake house is romantic,
the light house is just so breath-taking with her.

@ the lavender farm

leeuwin estate

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Dirty Filthy Love

2007-08-25T19:28:00.000+08:00

a man's life falls apart as a result of his affliction with obsessive compulsive disorder and tourette's syndrome but the man aint me.

haha....

i'm enjoying every single minute, hour and time with my monster. the feeling is just so overwhelmed with her presence, the love and affection that i received is so WOAH~ so lovely, she's someone i always long for... enough said~ =X

some pictures that i wanna share...

BE AFRAID, BE VERY AFRAID...

force to take pics even when i'm driving...

CATCHA!!! was caught grabbing my balls...

monSTer munching again without posing, UNGLAM shots!!!

one of my favourite photos...

she's beo-ing at my entry now, i better not blog too much bad and unglam stuff or else i no more seven heaven... hehe...

oh ya, i wont be updating for the next this few days... gotta out of here!

captain steven

2007-08-24T11:20:00.000+08:00

attention all passengers, this is captain steven, your pilot for today.

the flight would be touching down in western australia time eta 14:00 hours. the current weather now is 17deg most cloudy, would expect a couple of showers in the later afternoon with a low of 10deg. thank you for flying with qantas, i hope you have a pleasant journey in perth.

crew, prepare for arrival.

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whats with tomorrow?

2007-08-23T15:26:00.000+08:00

after days of speculation what about tomorrow?

close friends would know or some would perhaps guess is it regarding... if you follow closely with my entries, it should be quite obvious about the 'progress'.

well i should say that i have never felt so excited and anxious, other than nigee & eleen's visit last year... but this time round is a total different feeling! haha... my monSTer is gonna visit me here in Perth!!!

feelings is overwhelmed~~~ love is in the air~~ so loved~

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i look upon him

2007-08-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

my dad

a man in his sixties now, tt had been through rough times when he was young. worked at a early age to support the entire family(deceased grand mom & few siblings). grand dad passed away at a early age due to a fall.

if i'm not wrong, he started out as a apprentice in the construction/engineering industry, slowly he built on more complex engineering works and started his own business.... with years of experience, it progress with a few foremen and dozens of foreign workers.

i remember once that he was installing the overhead road signs on PIE along Kim Keat Link/Toa Payoh exit. i didn't know he did that till i saw it... the new Bowen secondary school's library, the round top shelter, and multi storey carpark in SengKang, Punggol, Tampanies and Sembawang is also his masterpiece.... believe it or not, and even PM Lee Hsien Long's house in town area...

he look strict and fierce in his appearance, he's one that i respect the most not because with his looks. its the aura & feelings he gave me. we had a generation gap with at least 40 years apart, we may think differently in certain aspects but mom always said that our bad temper is the same. why cant i have a little genius from him? thats what mom always says...

he's a family man who doesn't drinks but he smokes. i may see him as a non-gambler cause he just bets on horses occasionally but not now... he always puts the family in front of him, he provides us with a comfortable home, let us feel secure, with shelter and food. (i know this is what normal family men does. for my case, if you're close to me... you will know what i'm talking about.)

he planned the entire road for us ahead, he's a thinker i may say. i just talked to him 20mins ago, concerning about his back. due to the fact that it had worsen and had brought forward his operation day. i know its just a small minor operation with a very very high percentage of success rate but from what he told me over the phone, *personal stuff...etc*, he makes me feel so fragile... i weeped after we hang up. its not because of the operation, its the things he told me.

yes, i'm worried cause i'm unable to be there for him. i have to express my deepest thankfulness to him of what he had done & told me. he may not understand english nor know about this blog of mine but deep in my heart, i'm thankful of the many little & big things he had done for me. i'm proud to be his son.

signing off with lotsa respect
tan k.k.

days to happiness

2007-08-19T14:11:00.000+08:00

absence makes the heart fonder

how true is this sentence?
it varies from everyone, as of me, i'm growing out of it... not in a bad way but towards the brighter side of the pasture. i may sound ambiguous to a certain degree but its just how i felt towards it. you may argue with my used of term-logy, but never doubt about my affection & feelings.

can say that i'm naive? thinker? immature?
seriously, i don't fucking care how you gonna think about me. i'm doing fine here. as on today, i may not be the crazy guy or happy-go-lucky guy next door, just don't step on my tail or shit on my head. i will make sure i fucking blow yr head off... trust me!

why i sound so pissed nor angry?
maybe i'm.... i'm just expressing myself, i'm alright. like totally! haha... i need to study for my consumer behaviour test le, or else "goon goon" gonna bash me up!
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i think i lost count again...
(counting now....)
tomorrow onwards would be count down from 4days... excluding today~

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hour glass

2007-08-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

One of the most precious gifts God has given us is the ability to remember. There are plenty of hurts and disappointments in life that we should forget. But good memories become a treasure chest of priceless reminders of relationships shared and joys experienced.

Where is the heart that does not keep
Within its inmost store
Some fond remembrance hidden deep
Of days that are no more?

Never let today’s burden erase yesterday’s blessing.

extraction from today's Daily Bread.
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~~eight~~ LUCKY 7 on the spot...
my fav number if you don't know.
Proud to be a Man United fan, even thou they're adrift with the leaders...

so near yet so long....

2007-08-15T19:18:00.000+08:00

its been a long day for me in sch(9-5 with 2hr & 30mins break), as compare to the long wait i'm now... its NOTHING at all loh.

as i know i would be free ahead after today...

the wait just makes me sianzzzz already, anticipate like 18days ago...till now left with ~~nine~~ 8days. the wait makes me weak, makes me frustrated, makes me pissed and even wonder why does time pass so slow when you're away, farrr away....

what i really want now, is you. just wanna see you NOW. sickening!

what to do? WAIT... i'm contradicting myself, and i know it.

things i say, may makes no sense at all... i just wanna WHINE.
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i was reading through my horoscope the other day tt ah gal send me... i find that its so true in most aspects~ something to share... (hey! if you guys wants it, dun mind to pop me an email or tagged at my chatbox.)

hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way
gifted with the ability to be a very social person (depends WHO & whether its female anot? haha...)
a high and self confident type and center his own thought as a main focus
once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love"
the type who gamble anything in the casino (yes, its in the blood.)
like to be the first person to do something (SO TRUE!!!)
if he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking (sometimes am day-dreaming)

alright, its just some bullet points, good and bad its all in there.... its either take it or leave it, i would recommend that you keep it. :D

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pipping hot!!!

2007-08-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

its so hot which it just arrived this morning!

dun envy me that i can listen to lead vocal, Chester Bennington LIVE and get to see Mike Shinoda and my fav. Joe Hahn! this coming October~
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11 10 days LEFT..... its coming! its coming down to single digit~ hooray!!!

count nuts

2007-08-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

~~twelve~~ eleven days left... is my calculations correct?

haha! i have to admit that i hav lost count... (i cant count loh....)

other then that, i just felt a sudden urge to squeeze, bully, disturb and bite the monSTer... even more, its a form of affection & closeness i would like to display towards the monSTer...

all for now, i hav to kill time slowly with upcoming tests and assignments!!! kinda sucky thou~

"wah lan eh, kan si na sian loh! wa si buey tahan liao ar!"

national day rally me

2007-08-09T11:34:00.001+08:00

one sentence to my motherland,

Happy Birthday Singapore, may you be prosperity and 'in good whealth.

don't forget to give me a job in the government sector or integrated resort in years time ya. seriously i don't give a shit about others talking behind that i'm working for the government, cuz i want to be in the STB or running for the next MP~

for some i maybe dreaming but doesn't you dream? either small or unbelievable things?
just that how much hope or effort, you put into realising yr own dream, so lets aim high~

remember that -- SINGAPORE, a NATION FULL OF POSSIBILITIES.

15 14days! 2 more weeks and will be through...

quote of the week

2007-08-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

"jewel also gt the freedom to choose their owner hor!"

so if next time, you pick up something precious... you better asked if you could be their owner first, or else! something bad will befall on you.... like ME!

uni life has been picking up, even thou i have to drag myself up this morning and struggle during the initial part and towards the end cuz i'm outta focus and energy...

news that i got today, made me a relieved person... finally its all over, everything is good to go~ just one small issue, but a BIG one for me... is the wait in 16 15 days....

title pls, NO OFFENCE but.....

2007-08-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

alright, we all know that lecture is boring!

sometimes its either too dry or too hard to digest but yet i still have to focus on what the lecturer says even though i couldn't make out any sense about what they're talking about...

ppl always says that university life is the best of yr schooling life, its like getting to meet NEW friends(wah! tts like so exciting HAR!), some will get to meet 'THE ONE', party all night long, assignments are easy!....blah blah blah~~~

i'll have to accept part of it... sometimes, its interesting when u meet new friends but some are just a total turn off, arrogant, cant be bother piece of shit... the way they speak and their actions tells most of their personality and HOW they will react if problems arises, covering their own wee-hole without giving in any help.

you can say that i'm whining or venting my anger... i'm feelin just fine, i just say what i wanna say for the past week, as my team members in a particular tutorial class acts like this...

as for this week, everything is picking up... well, i guess so! hahaha....
(this shld be blogged last week, perhaps i couldn't put it in words thats why its a delayed...haha!)

tomorrow gonna be a long day for me...9 to 5, just like office hours~ *wink*
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as of now, i'm anticipating... looking forward... in what 17 16 days will turn out to be~

its never about the plant, nor the dog, or my uni life...

its about a 'thing', is MONSTER consider a THING too... haha! that is such importance to me~

issit my fav ELMO, Tickle Me ELMO TMX? or the LP tixs that arrive in my mailbox?

i got no idea~ lets wait and see...

patience my young jedi~
(but i not young anymore, tts why i'm impulsive!)

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Linkin Park

2007-08-06T11:02:00.000+08:00

its crawling in my skin, these wounds will never heal....

but in the end, what i've done makes me feel so numb.
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i woke up early, just to purchase the LP tickets~

i have been like spending money like water for the past weekend...

i still need to get books for my units,

and i'm gonna work like a ~~dog~~ COW these few weeks....

goodness! marvelous!!!
left 19 18 17 days
(someone commented that i can't count - 10:21pm)

whats left on the calender?

2007-08-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

news that i heard last night deprive my beauty sleep.

i keep tossing and turning around my queen size bed till like 5 in the morning.

seriously, i couldn't make out the actual reason why? too excited or overwhelmed?

but am looking forward to it, counting down as of today - 19 18 days left.

if you wanna know what issit? stay tune and keep on track...

we'll take it from here... i seriously mean it. hehe!!!

MEET THE MONSTER!

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the rock

2007-08-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning” (James 1:17).

with this verse, i could truly understand the meaning as no matter what things you have received, its a gift from above, and you should gladly accept it. just like love....

“Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds.”

in other words it says that true love does not change with circumstances because in Jeremiah 31:3,

God never changes, and neither does His love for us. We are recipients of a perfect love from our heavenly Father, who has loved us “with an everlasting love”

so for now its time to do something, one act of random kindness at a time is all to change the world.

who's coming to town?

2007-08-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

some call it event,
some call it gig,
some call it concert,
some don't fucking cares! like me....

cause Linkin ~~Fuck~~ Park will be in Perth this coming 18 October!

hopefully, i'm be the first to grab the tixs once its out this coming monday... i need some confirmation on who's going as well~!!! ahaha....

by the way, to all the chasing cars(Snow Patrol) fans out there.... they're coming on the 22 September... hehe!

envy me? please don't cause must likely i will turn up on either one or both of the gigs~

愛的天靈靈

2007-07-31T18:55:00.000+08:00

do i miss singapore?
yes cause NDP is coming and i missed watching the parade live at the national stadium or even from the television.

do i miss my home?
actually it depends... i miss my room more, but it has been dominated by my dad. i miss my second home as well, there's always someone there to accompany me during the most boring time and someone 'pei wo ta game'...

do i miss my friends?
oh definitely, they see me through the darkest time and bring me out of it... even though, we spend so much time together(nigel & raymond), i'm never sick of them. people say relationship grows by naturing it, but i say relationship grows from the direction that you're heading to. it may sound ambiguous to some, its just my theory or concepts that i see from...

do i miss "you-know-who-that-should-not-be-name"?
time spend was even faster that i expected, but you had left a impression in me. i'm not saying so much here now, or else i'll be stalked~ haha, STALKER!!!
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so here's part 2 as i had promised if there's....

the last night before i flew off, was happy yet sad with mixed emotions....

dinner with 'her', ah gal & nigel @ carnivore in vivo city, sadly raymond and yanting could not attend as there's some kinda of problem... next, we headed down to our fav chill out place, New Asia Bar... but the place seems not crowded anymore... where u can choose yr seats! haha...

dropped off, ah gal & nigel.... tts where we headed down to the beach for some romantic walks and interesting conversation till the wee morning...

i went back, had a shower... last min of packing thats where i head to T2 with all the wonderful memories i had during the weekend and my entire 6wks stay in Singapore.

thank you everyone!!! i miss you all.... muckz!

sianz

2007-07-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

i dun feel like blogging about the come back...

i dun feel good about it...

i dun have the mood at all...

but i'm bliss~ xD hehehe~

1 night in singapore

2007-07-28T16:40:00.000+08:00

i only managed to slp less than 10 hrs for the past 2 nights...

my whole body is feeling rather weak, even when i'm driving just now i can sense that my body and eyes giving way... even though i had shot a can of redbull, but i don't think it help much...

after all, its my last night in "Singland"... and i got a morning flight to catch tomorrow... i guess i wouldn't be sleeping much till i board the plane to boring land...
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yesterday, was quite a mysterious, funny and entertaining ~~day~~ date for me... sometime funny to share! have you ever enter the movie theater without knowing the theater screening number and sat at the wrong row and seats??? sound lame and hilarious...? thats what i actually did~ i was like so BLUR that i actually did such silly things... or rather didn't notice in other words...

sashimi~
dragon roll~~
tempura maki etc~~~ drool³
furthermore at my favourite restaurant, its indeed something i always look forward to. hehe~

with the pee beer aka corona.... for those whom i had told the story to about corona, you should know why its call pee beer~

enjoying the night skies at the highest peak... its totally awesome! yet the night is still young but little steven has to sleep... there ends the fun and laughter~

will there be part 2 tonight?
lets stay tune to this blog...
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i would like to thank everyone who had made my stay here this season a joyous one... am really looking forward to the year event, on top of that you are being missed already. love you all, and take care! adious amigos~

2 days 3 nights

2007-07-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

with the time left in the clock, ticking away every second... i know its time to go soon but i'm not prepared to part this wonderful city that is full of possibilities just yet!

i will maximise my stay here... as of today, i did many wonderful things that boost me up!

from queensway shopping centre, looking for my tiger onitsuka instead i got myself a shirt and some girly boxers and proceed to ikea, shopping for household products...than to far east plaza, searching for my tiger while i finally nail it at wheelock place. that is not enough, i went to toa payoh and ang mo kio central looking for humidifier but it doesn't sell the design that i wanted...sigh!

i'm still delighted with my purchase today. spend money like water (which my mom always commented on my spending habits, but actually did i? sometimes it just makes no sense...)

let it fly...

2007-07-24T00:28:00.001+08:00

blink~ blink~~~

i don't wish to part but yet i have to let it go of my feelings, after all its been so long...

thinking aback, good memories is vividly in my mind after so long. its a good thing that last but not those bad ones... i'm not dwelling about it anymore, rest assure~ xD even though i'm alone but i know there's someone up there overlooking me with love.

been repeating constantly, that time has caught up with me again, i have a great vacation/work here in Singapore, and looking forward to the next one already! haha...

being able to see my dad, mom, grandma, and my closed bond friends and loved ones, i'm already contended. thank you.

8days

2007-07-21T14:18:00.001+08:00

with the number of days getting numbered,
i was wondering what have i left in my "to do to buy list"...?

probably i should start cracking now...

Psalm 103

2007-07-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

Verse
15 As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;

16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.

was reading through today's daily bread, where i come across this passage from the Bible. it sorta knock some sense into me... and i deeply know that God has a place for us in his kingdom.

X-struck

2007-07-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

i'm in need of....
money
food
sex
affection from someone

i want....
a new mobile phone, waiting to be launch = Apple's iPhone
a new blogskin = just couldn't find any suitable ones
new clothings
better examination results = which could be attained through hardwork

i may sound desperate or so... but its human nature to seek such attention and love... likewise it would be hard for me to have a relationship here in Singapore when i need to persuade my further studies in Australia, vice versa to her... as of now, i do not have anyone in mind and have no intention of having a partner BUT after all its all up to fate... studies comes first, relationship later. i may sound as if i'm intellectual, its just words from my heart which matters the most. follow what your hearts says, and let actions do the talking...

scoop by scoop

2007-07-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

i just finished a tub of ben & jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream...

i'm feeling so sticky now, cause of the weather! so sickening...

with the remaining 2 and a half weeks left, i really need to focus on what i have to do before i go back to boring land... eat? shop? club? drink? mm? or wat?

a min ago, i was turned down the second time by the same person, for helping me to buy cigarettes upon returning to boring land. well, thats life~ if a person doesn't really 'fancy' you, who cares right? nvm about that...

scoop me hard... cause i really need it.

my semester 1 results will be out later at 5pm... am so anxious yet afraid... fingers crossed X=== (my fren just msg me that results is OUT..)

i logged in to my student server, and to my surprise i score 1 distinction(marketing) and short of 2marks to credit for economics and management and manage to scrap through is law! haha...

i will puff and puff, till you die!

xD

2007-07-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

i maybe slow...

my chinese maybe quite lousy to a certain degree,
i could hardly read nor write but i do can write my own name!

i find this following song nice...enjoy~

07.07.07

2007-07-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

my favourite number!!! where LIVE EARTH concerts is held in numerous countries~
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life (as in holiday) have been picking up for the past few days, as i had just came back from a short trip...

other than that i have been working 'hard' to save up for my year end trip...sweat baby sweat~~~

i should go to bed now...there's work tomorrow!

iiiiii want

2007-07-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

every tech savvy is talking about it...

everyone is gaga over it...

I WANT IT TOO.

yes, we're talking about iPhone!

I'M GONNA GET IT WHEN ITS OUT IN AUSTRALIA or SINGAPORE!!!

when its coming out?

I CAN'T WAIT ANYMORE!

timetabling! not dj-ing

2007-06-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

yapp~ i just completed my timetable for next semester...

my units:
Accounting - i'm not a future auditor nor accountant = great prospect but no life~, not my kind of field.
Consumer Behaviour - no exam unit, project based.
Tourism Management - something i'm would be learning that is related to my course.
Foundations of International Business - issit about scamming?

there wasn't much time slots for lectures, hips of tutorial class SIGH~

i squeeze all of the 4 units into the ~~frist~~ first 3 days of the week, WAH SIONG AR!!!

extra work = less time?

2007-06-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

as i realised that my time in Singapore, did pass by quickly while i'm enjoying & working at the same time.

how about work to kill my time? and to work for some hard earn money with sweat & sometimes blood involved. don't mistook me, i'm not selling myself...(i guess none wants anywhere, chey~)

i couldn't catch up with the things that i have done for the past week...

it just pass by so quickly, but i enjoyed every single moment of it.

my best man, mark had went back to Brisbane... did caught up with him during the midweek for some drinks.

met up with budd jennifer for dinner at Suntec yesterday... telling her how Christ had really came into my life...

and the rest of the gang for dinner, drinking session, slp over and work purposes.
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i wanna complain something bad about Singapore is the weather, its killing me~ i couldn't adapt to the sticky and sweating weather... totally outrageous! out of control...

and SINGAPOREAN, egoistic, realistic, arrogant, rude batch of shitheads!!! cant stand this kind of people... sigh! issit because Singapore Power Distance is at 74 thats why people are like this? can any kind hearted Singaporean tell me why.

the weather is fine, who said so?

2007-06-21T13:50:00.000+08:00

today's current weather forecast in Singapore, is partly cloudy at 32deg,

with a few scattered thunderstorms later in the day at low 25deg.

i should say i prefer the chill and cooling climate in Perth,

while its winter now, i could wear thick warm jackets and vest.

in SG, tees and shorts is enough to let you sweat it out.

i'm still waiting for my examination results from Curtin University.

it seems like its taking ages... heart is ponding~~~

i will smile for you~

2007-06-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

as of today, i'm a free man~ stress free from examinations!

finally a break from all the theories and definitions.

for today's paper, i felt kinda disappointed cause i didn't do my best, since its over i should not dwell over it...

i just got back from a hectic day, my feet are sore.... eat, walk, drink, smoke, shop, drink, walk walk walk walk walk endless for the whole of this afternoon till now... gonna have a hot bathe now~

i havent even packed my luggage yet, haha!

start doing so after my bath...

adious amigos everyone! see you in SINGAPORE!!!

(pardon me for my command of english.)

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suppose to post this 2 days back, but was rather lazy.... my current wallpaper, pocoyo.

wat am i doing?

2007-06-10T21:13:00.001+08:00

when de-stressing, people tend to do something funny, special or even out of the ordinary...

perhaps will go for a walk or run... watch some movies or show... eat lots of junks... SHOUT at their top of the voice! oh ya, SWEARING helps too!

as for me, surfing is all i could do to de-stress for now like youtube and EDMW (news and gossips from SG). 10mins ago, i discovered this really cute cartoon from spain, pocoyo! here are some pics~ hehe...

i know it may seems or feel that i'm childish, but seriously everyone has their 'child side' and who cares anyway... take that you bitcha~ _|_ (destressing too... haha)

i say GET OUT.

2007-06-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

take effect from today, my spaceship had been booted out of the car garage!

as i was 'forced' to make way for a new car who's own my someone i dislike. (no need to say who la...close frens should know WHO issit!?)

i was not even interested on having a joy ride just now, but since that bugger had offered... it would be offensive for me to reject it... worse of all, its just a really small ride... like circling the carpark thats all... that SUCK! not even testing the speed nor the engine of the car... arrogant piece of shit~ NBCCB~

yes, i'm unhappy giving up my precious lot...and my poor spaceship have to park OUTSIDE from now on... which i have to blog it out...
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i have revising since last week for non-stop...

going to uni almost every morning to revise my units... waking up at 8+ 9am...

havent had a proper sleep since then, been so tense that i couldn't have a good night sleep... i will be thinking so much before i sleep at 1+ 2am... chapters that i need to completed, graphs and definition... sigh!

i got my internal marks already... dunno to be happy or worried~ you be the judge!

ECONOMICS: 31/50
LAW: ~~not out yet~~ 32/50
MANAGEMENT: 34.5/50
MARKETING:51/60

gonna start mugging soon, sigh~

D Day is coming... in a few days time!

do not disturb

2007-05-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

i wouldn't be blogging for the next couple of weeks (havent blog for quite sometime since the last entry too, been busy.)

cause i would be preparing for my finals in 2 weeks time...

i'm already stressing out...

time passes so quickly as i haven't had enough time to revise.

from now till the last paper, i will be mugging hard.

hopefully, i could score D...Ds...and more Dsss or even HD!!!

sweet escape to 日本

2007-05-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

all assignments & projects are locked in...

as of now, officially i'm sorta free from all these stress.

but the greatest stress is yet to come in weeksss time, FINAL EXAMINATION!

seriously, i'm so afraid of examination! either i got too much time (dunno wat to write?!) or not enough time (write rubbish!) for it... haha! ask me to study nor revise!? i could seriously tell you that i don't know HOW?!

just read and write??? most of the time, i would shift my attention elsewhere, just like a child with short time spend and not be able to focus on certain things...except toys! makes me sound like a child... maybe worse! =X

and to write and memorise, its a KILLER for me... i cant memorise words, terms, or definition for nuts! not good~ not good~~~

guys, is there a way for me to stay on focus and being able to memorise all these terminology? thats really bad...

oh ya, i don't whether to change my major anot? to double major instead on just one. still taking tourism management but with what? marketing? public relation? or real estate? as of now, my eyes are set on marketing! but i think i would be struggling on that...HOW???

seek me an answer!!!

hopefully, after all these stressful issues... my mom could buy me a trip to the rising sun for a holiday! hopefully!!! or perhaps i strike lottery... we'll see and i will take it from here! love you all....

**hint hint** i'm coming back real SOON.

K.O.'ed!

2007-05-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

A WAKE UP CALL FOR ME!!!

its gonna hurt either way...

2007-05-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

ever since the last entry, i have been really struggling with my health and especially studies!

haven't had a good night sleep since, which i always wake up in the middle of the night or early morning with a sore or sting on my back and shoulder...

meeting deadlines of my projects and assignments... its like a hit in the head~ got ran over by a heavy truck, which resulted to the shrinkage of my brain. couldn't think properly and able to focus on a thing for long...

someone was telling me that, you're old already la...

it makes me ponder...physically or mentally? or both???
think about it, i'm not a young lad anymore but a man growing older with each passing day, awaiting something to come (nothing in particular)... perhaps to strike this thursday lottery of 30 million!!! haha...

last saturday was the ever first time this semester that i'm NOT out... nah~~~

that's ENOUGH, i said.

2007-05-12T10:55:00.000+08:00

this week is the shittiest week ever, and it had over shadow all the good things that had happened this week...

my sore neck & shoulder turn worst... i couldn't really slp last night, getting up from the bed, its another problem...

i have been awake since 7+ till now, and i cant get back to slp due to the injury~

issit becuz of the drinks i had last night which resulted in all these?

it wasn't a very pleasant night as well...

totally bad bad bad for me...

i think i shld impose some curfew on MYSELF.

there's so many thing that i have to think it through...

i need to repent for my wrongdoings...

fact or fiction

2007-05-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

what shall i pour in here today?

life's been really busy with uni, projects, assignments...

not to forget work & party~ but i just find that 'something' is missing.

its just so weird, when you're feeling this way while you're enjoying.

it doesn't make any sense... which i find it rather funny~

my neck and shoulder is recovering thou, but it still hurts...

gonna do my econs tut ques for tml now~